Waah. Im soo addicted to F.R.I.E.N.D.S. I just can't stop watching! My no-paying-attention to the show back then when I was a kid sure was worth it, i.e. because the jokes are much funnier when you're older (oh yes, I'm so past the denial stage. And I must admit: being an adult sure has its perks). And as you might have guessed (or not), I have a huge crush on Matthew Perry (Chandler Bing). Weeee!!!

However, upon my realization of the fact that I would be having less time for F.R.I.E.N.D.S. and more time for SS (that's "Thesis" for my non-PH friends), I guess I would have to say goodbye to daydreaming and sleeping. Waah. Only a sem to go, then Med school here we come!

Bye for now. Gotta check the cockroach I had Mercy collect for our assignment. Nyahaha. I hope its still good for dissection. :S

Chai, I think that for up to a certain point I'd believe in what Herbert Spencer said. If the commutative law applies to it.

The good could universally be the pleasurable, as "the end of good acts is their being conducive to life in oneself and in others. Life, itself, is good or bad according as it does or does not bring a surplus of agreeable feeling."

A bit inappropriate, but I cant think of anything else. Chai kasi.. hehehe, you stirred the pseudo philosopher in me. Anyway, as I pretend to be logical, I believe that goodness brings pleasure. Or pleasure brings goodness. In simple words, I would just like to share that I experienced pleasure from doing something good.

This morning, Ada and I had the chance to join the 2nd UP Manila GK Build in Baseco, Tondo. Upon entering AS gates and reaching the steps at 7:30 am, we saw NOT A SINGLE GK member. Wahaha. All the while we thought that the others have left us for the site. Naah. All of them just came LATE.

We were actually planning not to go, but I guess there was something that stopped us to.

After waiting for about an hour and 30 min, finally we rode the jeep to Baseco. Although we (Ada and I) were only the ones from CPH and the rest were from the College of Medicine (Well, except for Lady), I would say that we didn't feel out-of-place. Med peeps rock! :D

The best part was, aside from painting our assigned house salmon pink, seeing how Baseco people smile even if you ask them trivial things, like anong pangalan ng anak niyo? pano matatanggal ang pintura sa pantalon ko? anong ginagawa niyo? Pity is an inappropriate term, but that's how I'd best describe what I felt as Ada and I were painting the walls with our cute rollers and talking to those people.

It just made me realize how blessed I am to experience this kind of living. Hay..

Fun part: Picture taken by Nikki



At nakanganga pa ako. hahaha Kahit pa umitim ako at mukha na naman akong nanggaling sa Beach, iba ang feeling! :D



The Paint Magnet

Saya!! :D

Wahaw.

School is driving me crazy. Aside from the indescribable Epidemiology exam I took a while ago, I really had one tiring morning (Perhaps due to that I had only about 4 hours of sleep, and I had to read the experimental study transcription in 30 minutes). The weather was scorching hot and I must admit that I am not so confident with our thesis topics. Waah. Add to that the fact that I have an exam on Monday, on which, as usual, I havent read even a single transcription yet.

Well, thanks to ryan and our short walk through robinsons'. At least, for a time I forgot my problems. Hay. The mall is the GC's best friend.

Despite these, I am soo happy to share to you that I have a new baby sister:



Grace Lodrono :D Although I don't like her name that much, I am very sure that when I see her this Sunday, I would hug her and kiss her and hug her again and kiss her. I want to know how it feels to have a baby in the house :D



I wanna go home na!! :D

After realizing that I have been a total idiot for getting angry with my parents for what they did, I was sure that I have changed a lot. Man, how hard as stone have I been.

Realizations:

1. Your parents cannot give you their full trust. They say it, but they'll never do it.
2. You cannot do anything but follow them because they ARE your parents. They would find it hard to understand something you want (or perhaps need) which they view otherwise.
3. Even if you try to talk calm, you would inevitably talk in a high tone because they dont get your point easily.
4. Disappointing them would mean the "end" of your life. (well for me, at least)

Hay, bakit ganun, wala akong balak magsinungaling. Kung pwde lang sabihin ko na kailangan ko rin namang magpahinga sa skwela. Pero baka isipin nilang nagiging masama na ko.

Hindi naman ako ang "perfect student" kagaya ng iniisip nila. Hindi naman talaga ako magaling. Kung tutuusin, napakatamad ko at nagugulat na lang ako sa kung anong nangyayari sa grades ko (pero masaya din ito). Nagpapasalamat lang talaga ako sa Diyos at hindi niya ko pinabayaan. Sa TOTOO LANG, KUNG PWEDE LANG HINDI MAGING ACHIEVER, ginagawa ko na. Siguro magiging mas masaya ako. Ginagawa ko lang naman to dahil sa gusto ko maging masaya sila at mapantayan ko lahat ng ginawa nila para sa akin. PERO NAHIHIRAPAN NA KO. Bakit hindi ako pwede mka tres o singko? Dahil hindi ko sila pwdeng biguin. Dahil gusto kong nakikita sila n khit ppano ay natutuwa para sa kin. DIBA GANITO NMN GUSTO NG KARAMIHAN?

GRRR! I just found out na hindi pala ko inakbayan ni Gab. Dahil ba wala akong Embrace o Influence o Birth? Kala ko may naramdaman ako sa balikat ko. Bag ko lang pala. hahaha Kawawa naman ako. hehe

Anyway,
(1) I really enjoyed that Friday night. Thanks to Rox and her updated gig sched database. haha Sadly, I havent bought Imago's Blush yet. :( I really like Aia! :)

(2) SS Groupings are already out. I was assigned to the Health Policies Administration Department. Waah Problem tree, here we come! Thank God I have the best groupmates (naks)!

(3) I..I.. hate the HPAd exam I took a few hours ago. It was easy, but the problem was that I was so stu*p*d not to review my answers. :( Sayang, possible 1.0 pa naman yata ang HPAd. hehe

(4) I wish I had been much slimmer. My pants are getting tighter each week.

Yun lang.. Excited na ko for SS :)

Because almost all of my classmates' latest blog entries are about their venipuncture attempts, I would also like to share my thoughts on this 'simple' yet life-threatening procedure (haha).

I have had venipuncture attempts on four people only: my sister Jill, my brother Hope, my dad, and my lab partner Marian. I have drawn blood from three of them, but still the procedure makes me cry everytime. In our Micro class this afternoon, I was tasked to draw blood from Rox. Sadly, I was shaking then (for some unknown reason) and refused to perform the procedure. :(

When I saw Cristal's successful draw, I suddenly realized that I must learn how to do it. I HAVE TO.

Thanks to Marian, the lesson has already begun. I have drawn blood from her for the first time! Si Marian un! Waah! Mahirap hanapin ang veins niya :(

Ay bitin :)

I would like to thank the Lord for giving me so much blessings this week.

Despite the headache that school's starting to give me, I was blessed to have heard good news before the weekend. Ive already had my NMAT result at hand. Masaya naman ako. :)

Onga pala,

Let's welcome a special somebody who reads my blog: puppy papa! itay! daddy!

Bwahaha ikaw papa, binabasa mo pala blog ko. :)Iba na talaga ang naidudulot ng teknolohiya. Hihi Buti na lang mabait ako :)

Nasaan ang NMAT result ko??!!!

Waah! It has already been 4 weeks past their promised date. OMG, wala pa ring duamrating sa bahay na letter! Iiyak na ko! huhu

Anyway, I have already spent three days of my life as a senior BSPH undergrad. :) Yeah, it feels good to know that graduation is a few months away. Yet it is depressing to know that you are past the teen era, and are now facing the years of obliged formality. Hay, aging must really be hard. Freshmen see you as their grandma's buddies. A med tech in the LTO compound asks you if you already are married. Your parents expect too much from your application to med school.

Pero bakit ang itim ko pa rin, kahit na gumagamit ako ng whitening lotion? What's with the UV rays of Pangasinan sun? O baka skin ko lang ang may problema? Waah!!

Wahaha. I-connect niyo na lang. [Ang haba kasi ng Clinical Chem discussion kanina, 12 slides lang pero it took almost 2 hours to finish. hihi Kaya ayun, nawala sa focus ang utak ko]

to liven things up, i chose a kiddie skin to match my age. :) Nyahaha I miss blogging, but then I have nothing to write about.

Waah! Im so excited to go to the beach (na naman!! 3rd time ko na for this summer!). Iitim na naman ako! waah!! :)

Two Weekends in the Sleepy Province

Just like what Rox's feeling, I came to a realization that the summer has been too much fun for me. I am to spend my second weekend in Pangasinan, again, to see the famous hundred islands. I would say that I havent got any feeling of excitement in my fat-laden body. Nyahaha. Im tired of vacation as I gain a pound every other day and get darker skin as I expose my already not-so-fair complexion to the ultraviolet rays of the sun.
Yes, they could be signs of aging. I am already 20, and proud of it, except for the added wrinkles and pimples on my face.
Hay.. Dr. Calayan help me. hehe

:)

Gish, ang dami ko na palang utang na posts :)
Many things happened since the summer break started. Last April 9 (NMAT), I was able to meet my very beautiful friend Christine/Ching-ching *ching!*. Of course, we had planned it earlier: I would go to their church, and sleep at their house. I was very happy to meet her again, to talk about so many things. Ang masasabi ko lang:Woah. She seems to know a lot. Thanks Chai. I believe I have learned so much from you about 'life', which I believe I am not really experiencing right now. You really are a blessing :)
Of course, the summer break can't be called such if I were to have no time away from the house and closer to food and weight gain. Hehe My family and some friends went to Bohol for the Holy Weekend. Shux, I saw Loboc River! Nyahaha, if the name's not familiar, here's a clue: recall Sam Milby's movie 'Close To You'. Yeah! It was that with the floating restaurants :) nyahaha
Anyway, gtg. Kwentuhan na lang tayo next time. :) Hanap pa ng topics for NatSci 4.

at last.. a break

Yipee! No more tears for me, and for some of my batchmates. Yeah, the semester is over and there's only 2 semesters more to go. I can't wait to finish PH and head off to Med school! :)

Im trying to internalize the fact that there'd be no exams for the coming weeks, but I just can't. It seems that PH life has created in me an academic calendar and I had to follow it strictly. Now, I'm choosing between reading a Physiology book (Bakit Physio? I dunno. Bigla na lang akong naging interested sa human body!) and playing the violin. Oh man.. Marami pa kong gustong gawin..

I wanna die!

OMG, its been very tough for the past TWO days. Yes, it has only been 48 hours and my brain has already started malfunctioning. Just thinking of what we would be going through for the next two weeks makes me long for taking an LOA. Nyahaha

Anyway, at least I wasn't that disappointed that much. This morning's pathology exam turned out to be unexpected: compared to last semester's histology exams, the one we had today was easy. Yipee!

Gosh, gtg. I have to do a very critical task: SLEEP.

OMG

Next week's gonna be the toughest days of my college career. Man, 6 days of exams and reports. And after that, the dreaded Parasitology Exam.

I can't wait 'til summer! I wanna feel the Diliman air and explore QC. nyahaha. OMG. Callalily's having a gig with Stonefree at Saguijo. Waah! Tatsi and Miro! :P

Munich

After viewing Tatsi's and Heart's profiles on friendster, I suddenly wanted to go offline. Awch. ;c

Hehehe, di bale, may picture na naman ako.

Callalily Fever

We really can't get over Callalily.

At last, after desperate attempts of meeting Kean, Tatsi, Aaron, Alden, and Lemuel, our (Rox's/my) plans became successful. YES, we met Callalily in person, took pictures, patted backs (& embraced waists hehe).

We still decided to go to Mayrics, Espana although we were to have an 8 am Pathology class the next day. We just had to hear Kean's voice. And of course, Tatsi's guitar.
Candy, Rox's close friend from high school (tama ba?) was also with us at Mayrics. She hasn't seen Callalily yet, but she has no classes on Fridays and so she can 'chill' that night. hehe

Callalily was the first band to perform, and blessed as we are, we were given front seats - approximately a meter away from Tatsi. OMG Tatsi was so funny because he wasnt showing any emotion of excitement. We were staring at him when he turned his eyes to us after which he gave a little smile! So cute!
Maraming beses nangyari un..yuk.. feeling kami! hehe

They performed about 6-7 songs. We were just watching while other girls were dancing, hollering, and getting wild. As Candy puts it, "Sila ung groupies." hehe We don't mean to be rude, but hey Mayrics is a very small place - and its definitely not for jumping.

Of course, we can't go home til we take pictures of Callalily. We patiently waited, and waited, and waited.. until we had our chance. (yuk! desperado talaga) Aaron entered the room and I asked him first. He said "Sure, dun tayo sa labas.. para maliwanag (?)" We took pictures with Kean next, and OMG. At first we were shy to ask Tatsi, because he was far from where we were standing. I looked at him, and he approached us! He knew of course, that we wanted to take pictures of him. He placed his arm on my shoulders and smiled at the camera. And it was my favorite picture!

OMG Tatsi..

As a response to my dad's preaching this morning, I would like to admit that YES, I am sorry for letting myself put other things first before fulfilling my vows to God.

Schizofairnia II, last Friday night's concert at UP Diliman, was the only music fair that I have been since last year (Ok, not really. I have been to last Tuesday's 'Love is in the Fair'.. hehe). And yes, I enjoyed the night (and the morning) a lot! The bands were stunning, and the food was great. Except for some people who would jump senselessly just to make people feel their 'punk' presence (who cares, man?), everything was worth the hurry. [Sorry for arriving late at the meeting place..]

Tuesday night was likewise incredible, as I spent it with three of my highschool friends Tom, Vangie, and Isay, whom I missed a lot. Francine, Krissy, and Ryan, my blockmates, were also there, and they did not come there to see the bands - they came to eat the UP's country-famous ISAW. Wehehehe

Anyway,any post wouldnt be complete without me revealing a new prospect. hehe I saw a new band perform last Tuesday night - Callalily - and I think they're good (WUSHU). And the vocalist, Kean has a nice voice and a cute b*tt (ayihee, francine!). That's another hit for my crushcounter. (6+1=7)

This week's gonna be the last of detox days. Hay...

Waah!! I really love Dr. Juan Antonio Solon! OMGulay, this is fate! After struggling for one hour looking for the rare Entamoeba histolytica cyst, I found one a few seconds before the bell rang! (** This reminds me of what happened during our second stool unknown - Fasciola ova naman noon).. Dr. Solon leaned over my table and said, "Ano, nakita mo na?" I sadly said, "Sir, I'm not so sure.." I was frowning while he was checking my microscope. He took my paper and put the most wanted stroke of all -- THE CHECK MARK WITH 'JAS'. Waah! I found all the protozoans from the stool unknown!! :)
Today's also our Barangay Field Work for our Nutrition class. I'm so excited.. mamayang 12:30 un.. waah! :)
I purposedly went online today just to write this. Man. I must really like Doctor Solon.

Today's my dad's 49th birthday. Yihee, and he was waiting so long for this year to come - the last year of his life as an employee. He was telling us years ago that if the company opens up for a voluntary resignation program, he would definitely take it. He was just too tired of work.

And I am tired of schoolwork. But I can't do anything. OTOH, I can't wait 'til Saturday! :)Hihi.. well, actually, I can't wait to get to school because of the following reasons:

1. Parasitology class - Juan Antonio Solon, MD. OMG! He is definitely one of my 'crush'-es now. Especially when he smiled at me and my indistinguishable Fasciola sp. ova from fecal debris.

2. Pathology class - Aside from the fact that I can't afford to miss a class anymore because of excessive absences, the lectures are becoming more exciting. I especially liked Dr. Carnete's lecture on Neoplasia. OMGulay, this is a sign (perhaps a prospect for specialization): Oncology, is that you?

3. Microbiology class - The virology lectures are going to start! Mi favorito!

4. Of course, Lunch, and the mid-day breaks - when I get the privilege of walking the PH-Med pathway.. near the PHI tambayan to have a view of my soulmate Harold Louis Trinidad, or perhaps for him to have a view of me. (asleep, dreaming..)

5. My friends, and my classmates, to whom I have been very close recently :)

ZZZzzz Kinda sleepy.. Bye!

Today's my dad's 49th birthday. Yihee, and he was waiting so long for this year to come - the last year of his life as an employee. He was telling us years ago that if the company opens up for a voluntary resignation program, he would definitely take it. He was just too tired of work.

And I am tired of schoolwork. But I can't do anything. OTOH, I can't wait 'til Saturday! :)Hihi.. well, actually, I can't wait to get to school because of the following reasons:

1. Parasitology class - Juan Antonio Solon, MD. OMG! He is definitely one of my 'crush'-es now. Especially when he smiled at me and my indistinguishable Fasciola sp. ova from fecal debris.

2. Pathology class - Aside from the fact that I can't afford to miss a class anymore because of excessive absences, the lectures are becoming more exciting. I especially liked Dr. Carnete's lecture on Neoplasia. OMGulay, this is a sign (perhaps a prospect for specialization): Oncology, is that you?

3. Microbiology class - The virology lectures are going to start! Mi favorito!

4. Of course, Lunch, and the mid-day breaks - when I get the privilege of walking the PH-Med pathway.. near the PHI tambayan to have a view of my soulmate Harold Louis Trinidad, or perhaps for him to have a view of me. (asleep, dreaming..)

5. My friends, and my classmates, to whom I have been very close recently :)

ZZZzzz Kinda sleepy.. Bye!

It was just different. When I entered our room, I saw Jill watching some cartoon on TV, silent, with her thumb on her lips. I placed my bag on the table and changed my shirt. I put on my jacket again, and asked my sister, "Jill, gusto mo sumama?" She just answered, "Tinatamad ako eh."

Well, ok. I am used to shopping alone, and it was a rare moment that I feel sad about walking the streets of Taft by myself. I suddenly remembered my family back in Laguna. I miss my room. I miss the food. I miss the piano. I miss the TV. I miss sleeping peacefully. I miss my family.

And so with this deep emotion, I took my stylus out and sent a message to my mom. "Ma, gusto ko po umuwi."

Seemingly amazed at my sudden message, my mom asked, "Bakit, masama ba pakiramdam mo? May sakit ka?"

"Wala po. Nalulungkot lang ako."

Just like what I shared to my friends in school about me being homesick, I suddenly wanted not to stay in LG anymore.

But what can I do? It was my decision to stay away from home anyway. For the shallow reason that I wanted to do better in school. Now, I am yearning to go back home. I do not find it a problem to ride the bus for two hours and arrive home at 8 pm. I do not find it tiring to stay up late because I started doing my homework at 10. These things do not count as sacrifices.

I can't sleep, no matter what I do.. I just keep on thinking about .. nahh hehe
This is really serious. Insomniac na tlga ako. Kasalanan ito ng CPH! hehe

Anyway, I would just like to express my sincere gratitude to two ladies in our church, who appreciated my very obviously unprepared song number last Sunday. Pakantahin ba naman ng Jesu Joy without even a day's practice? Thank God, I was familiar to the song because my brother always played his Josh Groban track. :)
Thank you so much sisters __ & ___ for making me feel good.

I felt like I was Lili. Man, dream on.

Cge, I'm gonna continue my blog hopping na :) hehe