conscious|krishna

2006-11-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

Waah. Im soo addicted to F.R.I.E.N.D.S. I just can't stop watching! My no-paying-attention to the show back then when I was a kid sure was worth it, i.e. because the jokes are much funnier when you're older (oh yes, I'm so past the denial stage. And I must admit: being an adult sure has its perks). And as you might have guessed (or not), I have a huge crush on Matthew Perry (Chandler Bing). Weeee!!!

However, upon my realization of the fact that I would be having less time for F.R.I.E.N.D.S. and more time for SS (that's "Thesis" for my non-PH friends), I guess I would have to say goodbye to daydreaming and sleeping. Waah. Only a sem to go, then Med school here we come!

Bye for now. Gotta check the cockroach I had Mercy collect for our assignment. Nyahaha. I hope its still good for dissection. :S

2006-09-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

Chai, I think that for up to a certain point I'd believe in what Herbert Spencer said. If the commutative law applies to it.

The good could universally be the pleasurable, as "the end of good acts is their being conducive to life in oneself and in others. Life, itself, is good or bad according as it does or does not bring a surplus of agreeable feeling."

A bit inappropriate, but I cant think of anything else. Chai kasi.. hehehe, you stirred the pseudo philosopher in me. Anyway, as I pretend to be logical, I believe that goodness brings pleasure. Or pleasure brings goodness. In simple words, I would just like to share that I experienced pleasure from doing something good.

This morning, Ada and I had the chance to join the 2nd UP Manila GK Build in Baseco, Tondo. Upon entering AS gates and reaching the steps at 7:30 am, we saw NOT A SINGLE GK member. Wahaha. All the while we thought that the others have left us for the site. Naah. All of them just came LATE.

We were actually planning not to go, but I guess there was something that stopped us to.

After waiting for about an hour and 30 min, finally we rode the jeep to Baseco. Although we (Ada and I) were only the ones from CPH and the rest were from the College of Medicine (Well, except for Lady), I would say that we didn't feel out-of-place. Med peeps rock! :D

The best part was, aside from painting our assigned house salmon pink, seeing how Baseco people smile even if you ask them trivial things, like anong pangalan ng anak niyo? pano matatanggal ang pintura sa pantalon ko? anong ginagawa niyo? Pity is an inappropriate term, but that's how I'd best describe what I felt as Ada and I were painting the walls with our cute rollers and talking to those people.

It just made me realize how blessed I am to experience this kind of living. Hay..

Fun part: Picture taken by Nikki

At nakanganga pa ako. hahaha Kahit pa umitim ako at mukha na naman akong nanggaling sa Beach, iba ang feeling! :D

The Paint Magnet

Saya!! :D

2006-09-08T18:34:00.000+08:00

Wahaw.

School is driving me crazy. Aside from the indescribable Epidemiology exam I took a while ago, I really had one tiring morning (Perhaps due to that I had only about 4 hours of sleep, and I had to read the experimental study transcription in 30 minutes). The weather was scorching hot and I must admit that I am not so confident with our thesis topics. Waah. Add to that the fact that I have an exam on Monday, on which, as usual, I havent read even a single transcription yet.

Well, thanks to ryan and our short walk through robinsons'. At least, for a time I forgot my problems. Hay. The mall is the GC's best friend.

Despite these, I am soo happy to share to you that I have a new baby sister:

Grace Lodrono :D Although I don't like her name that much, I am very sure that when I see her this Sunday, I would hug her and kiss her and hug her again and kiss her. I want to know how it feels to have a baby in the house :D

I wanna go home na!! :D

2006-08-29T04:19:00.000+08:00

After realizing that I have been a total idiot for getting angry with my parents for what they did, I was sure that I have changed a lot. Man, how hard as stone have I been.

2006-08-19T01:39:00.000+08:00

Realizations:

1. Your parents cannot give you their full trust. They say it, but they'll never do it.
2. You cannot do anything but follow them because they ARE your parents. They would find it hard to understand something you want (or perhaps need) which they view otherwise.
3. Even if you try to talk calm, you would inevitably talk in a high tone because they dont get your point easily.
4. Disappointing them would mean the "end" of your life. (well for me, at least)

Hay, bakit ganun, wala akong balak magsinungaling. Kung pwde lang sabihin ko na kailangan ko rin namang magpahinga sa skwela. Pero baka isipin nilang nagiging masama na ko.

Hindi naman ako ang "perfect student" kagaya ng iniisip nila. Hindi naman talaga ako magaling. Kung tutuusin, napakatamad ko at nagugulat na lang ako sa kung anong nangyayari sa grades ko (pero masaya din ito). Nagpapasalamat lang talaga ako sa Diyos at hindi niya ko pinabayaan. Sa TOTOO LANG, KUNG PWEDE LANG HINDI MAGING ACHIEVER, ginagawa ko na. Siguro magiging mas masaya ako. Ginagawa ko lang naman to dahil sa gusto ko maging masaya sila at mapantayan ko lahat ng ginawa nila para sa akin. PERO NAHIHIRAPAN NA KO. Bakit hindi ako pwede mka tres o singko? Dahil hindi ko sila pwdeng biguin. Dahil gusto kong nakikita sila n khit ppano ay natutuwa para sa kin. DIBA GANITO NMN GUSTO NG KARAMIHAN?

2006-08-16T19:01:00.000+08:00

GRRR! I just found out na hindi pala ko inakbayan ni Gab. Dahil ba wala akong Embrace o Influence o Birth? Kala ko may naramdaman ako sa balikat ko. Bag ko lang pala. hahaha Kawawa naman ako. hehe

Anyway,
(1) I really enjoyed that Friday night. Thanks to Rox and her updated gig sched database. haha Sadly, I havent bought Imago's Blush yet. :( I really like Aia! :)

(2) SS Groupings are already out. I was assigned to the Health Policies Administration Department. Waah Problem tree, here we come! Thank God I have the best groupmates (naks)!

(3) I..I.. hate the HPAd exam I took a few hours ago. It was easy, but the problem was that I was so stu*p*d not to review my answers. :( Sayang, possible 1.0 pa naman yata ang HPAd. hehe

(4) I wish I had been much slimmer. My pants are getting tighter each week.

Yun lang.. Excited na ko for SS :)

2006-07-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

Because almost all of my classmates' latest blog entries are about their venipuncture attempts, I would also like to share my thoughts on this 'simple' yet life-threatening procedure (haha).

I have had venipuncture attempts on four people only: my sister Jill, my brother Hope, my dad, and my lab partner Marian. I have drawn blood from three of them, but still the procedure makes me cry everytime. In our Micro class this afternoon, I was tasked to draw blood from Rox. Sadly, I was shaking then (for some unknown reason) and refused to perform the procedure. :(

When I saw Cristal's successful draw, I suddenly realized that I must learn how to do it. I HAVE TO.

Thanks to Marian, the lesson has already begun. I have drawn blood from her for the first time! Si Marian un! Waah! Mahirap hanapin ang veins niya :(

Ay bitin :)

2006-06-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

I would like to thank the Lord for giving me so much blessings this week.

Despite the headache that school's starting to give me, I was blessed to have heard good news before the weekend. Ive already had my NMAT result at hand. Masaya naman ako. :)

Onga pala,

Let's welcome a special somebody who reads my blog: puppy papa! itay! daddy!

Bwahaha ikaw papa, binabasa mo pala blog ko. :)Iba na talaga ang naidudulot ng teknolohiya. Hihi Buti na lang mabait ako :)

2006-06-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

Nasaan ang NMAT result ko??!!!

Waah! It has already been 4 weeks past their promised date. OMG, wala pa ring duamrating sa bahay na letter! Iiyak na ko! huhu

Anyway, I have already spent three days of my life as a senior BSPH undergrad. :) Yeah, it feels good to know that graduation is a few months away. Yet it is depressing to know that you are past the teen era, and are now facing the years of obliged formality. Hay, aging must really be hard. Freshmen see you as their grandma's buddies. A med tech in the LTO compound asks you if you already are married. Your parents expect too much from your application to med school.

Pero bakit ang itim ko pa rin, kahit na gumagamit ako ng whitening lotion? What's with the UV rays of Pangasinan sun? O baka skin ko lang ang may problema? Waah!!

Wahaha. I-connect niyo na lang. [Ang haba kasi ng Clinical Chem discussion kanina, 12 slides lang pero it took almost 2 hours to finish. hihi Kaya ayun, nawala sa focus ang utak ko]

2006-05-29T16:14:00.001+08:00

to liven things up, i chose a kiddie skin to match my age. :) Nyahaha I miss blogging, but then I have nothing to write about.

Waah! Im so excited to go to the beach (na naman!! 3rd time ko na for this summer!). Iitim na naman ako! waah!! :)

Two Weekends in the Sleepy Province

2006-05-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

Just like what Rox's feeling, I came to a realization that the summer has been too much fun for me. I am to spend my second weekend in Pangasinan, again, to see the famous hundred islands. I would say that I havent got any feeling of excitement in my fat-laden body. Nyahaha. Im tired of vacation as I gain a pound every other day and get darker skin as I expose my already not-so-fair complexion to the ultraviolet rays of the sun.
Yes, they could be signs of aging. I am already 20, and proud of it, except for the added wrinkles and pimples on my face.
Hay.. Dr. Calayan help me. hehe

:)

2006-04-20T18:59:00.000+08:00

Gish, ang dami ko na palang utang na posts :)
Many things happened since the summer break started. Last April 9 (NMAT), I was able to meet my very beautiful friend Christine/Ching-ching *ching!*. Of course, we had planned it earlier: I would go to their church, and sleep at their house. I was very happy to meet her again, to talk about so many things. Ang masasabi ko lang:Woah. She seems to know a lot. Thanks Chai. I believe I have learned so much from you about 'life', which I believe I am not really experiencing right now. You really are a blessing :)
Of course, the summer break can't be called such if I were to have no time away from the house and closer to food and weight gain. Hehe My family and some friends went to Bohol for the Holy Weekend. Shux, I saw Loboc River! Nyahaha, if the name's not familiar, here's a clue: recall Sam Milby's movie 'Close To You'. Yeah! It was that with the floating restaurants :) nyahaha
Anyway, gtg. Kwentuhan na lang tayo next time. :) Hanap pa ng topics for NatSci 4.

at last.. a break

2006-04-02T14:40:00.000+08:00

Yipee! No more tears for me, and for some of my batchmates. Yeah, the semester is over and there's only 2 semesters more to go. I can't wait to finish PH and head off to Med school! :)

Im trying to internalize the fact that there'd be no exams for the coming weeks, but I just can't. It seems that PH life has created in me an academic calendar and I had to follow it strictly. Now, I'm choosing between reading a Physiology book (Bakit Physio? I dunno. Bigla na lang akong naging interested sa human body!) and playing the violin. Oh man.. Marami pa kong gustong gawin..

I wanna die!

2006-03-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

OMG, its been very tough for the past TWO days. Yes, it has only been 48 hours and my brain has already started malfunctioning. Just thinking of what we would be going through for the next two weeks makes me long for taking an LOA. Nyahaha

Anyway, at least I wasn't that disappointed that much. This morning's pathology exam turned out to be unexpected: compared to last semester's histology exams, the one we had today was easy. Yipee!

Gosh, gtg. I have to do a very critical task: SLEEP.

OMG

2006-03-08T10:52:00.000+08:00

Next week's gonna be the toughest days of my college career. Man, 6 days of exams and reports. And after that, the dreaded Parasitology Exam.

I can't wait 'til summer! I wanna feel the Diliman air and explore QC. nyahaha. OMG. Callalily's having a gig with Stonefree at Saguijo. Waah! Tatsi and Miro! :P

Munich

2006-02-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

After viewing Tatsi's and Heart's profiles on friendster, I suddenly wanted to go offline. Awch. ;c

Hehehe, di bale, may picture na naman ako.

Callalily Fever

2006-02-24T13:38:00.000+08:00

We really can't get over Callalily.

At last, after desperate attempts of meeting Kean, Tatsi, Aaron, Alden, and Lemuel, our (Rox's/my) plans became successful. YES, we met Callalily in person, took pictures, patted backs (& embraced waists hehe).

We still decided to go to Mayrics, Espana although we were to have an 8 am Pathology class the next day. We just had to hear Kean's voice. And of course, Tatsi's guitar.
Candy, Rox's close friend from high school (tama ba?) was also with us at Mayrics. She hasn't seen Callalily yet, but she has no classes on Fridays and so she can 'chill' that night. hehe

Callalily was the first band to perform, and blessed as we are, we were given front seats - approximately a meter away from Tatsi. OMG Tatsi was so funny because he wasnt showing any emotion of excitement. We were staring at him when he turned his eyes to us after which he gave a little smile! So cute!
Maraming beses nangyari un..yuk.. feeling kami! hehe

They performed about 6-7 songs. We were just watching while other girls were dancing, hollering, and getting wild. As Candy puts it, "Sila ung groupies." hehe We don't mean to be rude, but hey Mayrics is a very small place - and its definitely not for jumping.

Of course, we can't go home til we take pictures of Callalily. We patiently waited, and waited, and waited.. until we had our chance. (yuk! desperado talaga) Aaron entered the room and I asked him first. He said "Sure, dun tayo sa labas.. para maliwanag (?)" We took pictures with Kean next, and OMG. At first we were shy to ask Tatsi, because he was far from where we were standing. I looked at him, and he approached us! He knew of course, that we wanted to take pictures of him. He placed his arm on my shoulders and smiled at the camera. And it was my favorite picture!

OMG Tatsi..

2006-02-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

As a response to my dad's preaching this morning, I would like to admit that YES, I am sorry for letting myself put other things first before fulfilling my vows to God.

Schizofairnia II, last Friday night's concert at UP Diliman, was the only music fair that I have been since last year (Ok, not really. I have been to last Tuesday's 'Love is in the Fair'.. hehe). And yes, I enjoyed the night (and the morning) a lot! The bands were stunning, and the food was great. Except for some people who would jump senselessly just to make people feel their 'punk' presence (who cares, man?), everything was worth the hurry. [Sorry for arriving late at the meeting place..]

Tuesday night was likewise incredible, as I spent it with three of my highschool friends Tom, Vangie, and Isay, whom I missed a lot. Francine, Krissy, and Ryan, my blockmates, were also there, and they did not come there to see the bands - they came to eat the UP's country-famous ISAW. Wehehehe

Anyway,any post wouldnt be complete without me revealing a new prospect. hehe I saw a new band perform last Tuesday night - Callalily - and I think they're good (WUSHU). And the vocalist, Kean has a nice voice and a cute b*tt (ayihee, francine!). That's another hit for my crushcounter. (6+1=7)

This week's gonna be the last of detox days. Hay...

2006-02-09T11:11:00.000+08:00

Waah!! I really love Dr. Juan Antonio Solon! OMGulay, this is fate! After struggling for one hour looking for the rare Entamoeba histolytica cyst, I found one a few seconds before the bell rang! (** This reminds me of what happened during our second stool unknown - Fasciola ova naman noon).. Dr. Solon leaned over my table and said, "Ano, nakita mo na?" I sadly said, "Sir, I'm not so sure.." I was frowning while he was checking my microscope. He took my paper and put the most wanted stroke of all -- THE CHECK MARK WITH 'JAS'. Waah! I found all the protozoans from the stool unknown!! :)
Today's also our Barangay Field Work for our Nutrition class. I'm so excited.. mamayang 12:30 un.. waah! :)
I purposedly went online today just to write this. Man. I must really like Doctor Solon.

2006-01-22T00:08:00.001+08:00

Today's my dad's 49th birthday. Yihee, and he was waiting so long for this year to come - the last year of his life as an employee. He was telling us years ago that if the company opens up for a voluntary resignation program, he would definitely take it. He was just too tired of work.

And I am tired of schoolwork. But I can't do anything. OTOH, I can't wait 'til Saturday! :)Hihi.. well, actually, I can't wait to get to school because of the following reasons:

1. Parasitology class - Juan Antonio Solon, MD. OMG! He is definitely one of my 'crush'-es now. Especially when he smiled at me and my indistinguishable Fasciola sp. ova from fecal debris.

2. Pathology class - Aside from the fact that I can't afford to miss a class anymore because of excessive absences, the lectures are becoming more exciting. I especially liked Dr. Carnete's lecture on Neoplasia. OMGulay, this is a sign (perhaps a prospect for specialization): Oncology, is that you?

3. Microbiology class - The virology lectures are going to start! Mi favorito!

4. Of course, Lunch, and the mid-day breaks - when I get the privilege of walking the PH-Med pathway.. near the PHI tambayan to have a view of my soulmate Harold Louis Trinidad, or perhaps for him to have a view of me. (asleep, dreaming..)

5. My friends, and my classmates, to whom I have been very close recently :)

ZZZzzz Kinda sleepy.. Bye!

2006-01-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

2006-01-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

It was just different. When I entered our room, I saw Jill watching some cartoon on TV, silent, with her thumb on her lips. I placed my bag on the table and changed my shirt. I put on my jacket again, and asked my sister, "Jill, gusto mo sumama?" She just answered, "Tinatamad ako eh."

Well, ok. I am used to shopping alone, and it was a rare moment that I feel sad about walking the streets of Taft by myself. I suddenly remembered my family back in Laguna. I miss my room. I miss the food. I miss the piano. I miss the TV. I miss sleeping peacefully. I miss my family.

And so with this deep emotion, I took my stylus out and sent a message to my mom. "Ma, gusto ko po umuwi."

Seemingly amazed at my sudden message, my mom asked, "Bakit, masama ba pakiramdam mo? May sakit ka?"

"Wala po. Nalulungkot lang ako."

Just like what I shared to my friends in school about me being homesick, I suddenly wanted not to stay in LG anymore.

But what can I do? It was my decision to stay away from home anyway. For the shallow reason that I wanted to do better in school. Now, I am yearning to go back home. I do not find it a problem to ride the bus for two hours and arrive home at 8 pm. I do not find it tiring to stay up late because I started doing my homework at 10. These things do not count as sacrifices.

2006-01-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep, no matter what I do.. I just keep on thinking about .. nahh hehe
This is really serious. Insomniac na tlga ako. Kasalanan ito ng CPH! hehe

Anyway, I would just like to express my sincere gratitude to two ladies in our church, who appreciated my very obviously unprepared song number last Sunday. Pakantahin ba naman ng Jesu Joy without even a day's practice? Thank God, I was familiar to the song because my brother always played his Josh Groban track. :)
Thank you so much sisters __ & ___ for making me feel good.

I felt like I was Lili. Man, dream on.

Cge, I'm gonna continue my blog hopping na :) hehe

2005-12-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

Happy Holidays!

And of course, there is nothing else to tell but what I did this Christmas break. Nyahaha. Aside from reading John Grisham's The Brethren, I have done a great job of behaving myself for about 16 hours a day from the 24th until the 26th of December. How? By sleeping. And because of my new addiction (+ 6 meals a day), I have been rewarded an extra 4 pounds this break. Hurray to Hypnos!

Man, I have been forbidden to use Metformin HCl. huhu. I just saw in our medicine box at home dozens of Glucophage! Bakit ngaun lang? waahh. Now I am faced with a very difficult task: to count calories, again (I havent been doing this for months.).

December 23rd: We were preparing for our trip to Cagayan with our beloved travelmates, the Abrasaldo family. When we reached NLE, we couldnt help ourselves but compare it with our own lovely SLE. Tsk..Mas maganda nga ang NLE. The feeling is funny, but I was amazed at how long the Toll Plaza was. Patawad, taga Dirty South ako. hehe At about 10-11 pm, we reached Cabanatuan City, and spent the night there. And Ryan, the most popular resident of Cabanatuan in PH, was on his way to Manila then. Wehehe! Sayang!

December 24th: Sleeping Session 1. We started heading North. Passing through the different towns of Nueva Ecija, we at last reached Region 2. I really didnt know that Nueva Vizcaya was the next Province to NE. (Nueva Ecija, Nueva Vizcaya .. makes sense!.. nyahaha) Lagot ako sa SIBIKA teacher ko nung grade school. hehe
After many hours of butt-warming travel, we FINALLY reached Aparri! Ang dulo ng Filipinas! And as it was on the whole trip, we cant see much scenery because we always arrive at the place at midnight. Awww

December 25th: Mommymama's birthday. Yey! Mama has turned 46! After having franks for breakfast, we headed to a little village near the South China Sea. Sa Aparri pala maraming hipon. hehe The kilometer reading in our car showed: 618. The trip continued, and they were planning to go back South to Baguio. But this time, with a different route. We crossed the northern border to Pagudpod, then headed South through Ilocos Norte, Ilocos Sur, and La Union. Since it was a Sunday, we stopped by a small Baptist church in Alcala, Cagayan. We had wonderful fellowship, although we really didnt understand the preaching (because it was in Ilocano). While at church, (*tsk.. bad) Ryan told me that he got sir Harry's number on Friendster's bulletin board. Ryan, greeted him 'Merry Christmas', and so did I. hehe

Kris: "Merry Christmas, sir Harry!"
**Take note: I called him 'Sir Harry' sa text. waah! careless!

Sir Harry: "Merry Christmas!:) may i knw hu this is pls?:)"

Kris: "Sir, I am one of your students in your Histology class last semester. Nasa friends list nyo po ko s friendster. I got your number from the bboard.:)"

Sir Harry: "Ah ok. Haha.:) no prob! Bt n u give me ur name na? Dnt have net access nw, hehe.:)"
**Mukhang pinapahaba ko ang usapan namin dito. hehe

Kris: "Its Kris, sir.:)"
**Waah! Ang iksi ng reply ko! :P

Sir Harry: "ayt.:)enjoy ur break!:)"

Kris: "Thanks sir.:) See you at school! Happy Holidays!:)"
**Hehe, feeling close

--end--

Wehehe.. Kilig ako! :

2005-11-08T10:35:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's the end of everything! hrhr

Although I have been always talking about studying and my eagerness to finish college to enter Medicine school, I still DEMAND a longer break. 2 weeks is just equivalent to 2 hours if you have done too much of everything for the past semester.

Contrary to my previous post, last week, there had been drastic changes in my daily routine. Instead of the 1-14 list of Things-To-Do, everything happened at random. A few years back, my parents have decided not to visit the cemetery during the first week of November due to heavy traffic in Sucat. To take advantage of the work holiday, we would always go out of town for swimming or a road trip.

For this year, they decided to visit the Bicol Region -- to know how it feels to drive through 400++ kilometers of dust, rocks, and rains. Whew. It took us 12 hours to reach our destination, Legazpi City. We had a breathtaking view of Mayon Volcano at dusk, and it hasnt lost all of its beauty yet. Unlike Mt. Makiling of which I have the privilege to see everyday, Mayon Volcano was almost ideal. It was green, and has that shape so much like those sketches I did in grade school.
Sad to say, I think the only tourist attraction there was the ruins of the Cagsawa church, which, if you still can remember, is the small tower we see in postcards of Mayon Volcano. For PhP 7.00 you can take a closer look at it, and shop at a small dry market of Bicol souvenirs. ANd since it was sembreak, I had no money to buy myself something. Thank God I have a mom!

The trip back to Laguna seemed never-ending. 14 hours through Legaspi, Albay, Camarines Sur, Camarines Norte, Batangas -- we passed a hundred of towns until we reached little San Pedro.

Still unsatisfied with the trip we had to Bicol, we spent a night swimming in Pansol Laguna last Friday. That morning I had to get my phone from Shopwise in Araneta Center (Fortunately, the hardware was brought to life, thanks to Dr. Joshua. I still have problems with the software though. Grr that water!). We had to rush back home to prepare for the swim.

My brother's girlfriend, Aura, came with us to Pansol. And yes, we are very good friends now.

2005-10-26T15:13:00.000+08:00

Its so nice to see how netscape looks after weeks of being held in endless travel. Nothing too exciting to share though.

For the past few days I've been doing nothing different from this sequence:

1. wake up, look in the mirror
2. go downstairs, search for cereal, bread or rice
3. eat 6-10 cookies (300 calories!)
4. call my mom
5. play games with my siblings
6. take a shower, sing
7. play piano (composers in this sequence: BACH, CLEMENTI, then try MOZART, frustration begins, go back to VON GAEL, and for a finale BEETHOVEN's Fur Elise with wrong counting and weak fingers)
8. hurry because mom's waiting outside
9. take a tour of Laguna (but not leisurely)
10. eat dinner at a restaurant along South Luzon Expressway
11. watch PBB, if it is still on TV, or else watch a movie
12. play with siblings til midnight
13. Crawl into my parent's bed and hug my mom
14. Wake up and realize that I slept in my parent's bed the night before

Small alterations in between aren't really that noticeable. Hay.. But still, I prefer this life for the next few weeks because I hate schoolwork haunting me in my dreams.

Hmm.. wait. Last Saturday *Toot* asked me to save my number in his phone! OMGulay. We were eating at KFC Morayta (at magkatapat pa kmi ng seats ^_^) when he took his phone out and told me "wala pa kong number mo.." and then he gave me his phone. Ahaha- the wallpaper was a picture of him (vain, conceited? nah). After saving my number in his phonebook, I gave the phone to Bob and told him to also put his number there. Ayoko kc isauli s kanya ung phone eh. :P

Here's the bad part: my phone's busted! gulay, my stupidity. I placed a half-filled distilled water bottle in my bag, and I didnt know that it wasnt tightly capped. GRR. I just felt something cold in my lap, and then *poof! What I saw next was my half-soaked NMAT Application form, my wet wallet, and then my xda completely soaked in that electrolyte-depleted water! BAKIT NGAUN PA! waaaahh!!! :( We went to SM Las Pinas to check if a certain QuickCom still does services for XDA phones. I saw their name on the box of my Phone and with no hesitation asked my brother to accompany me to the shop. BUT -- The company has already given up XDA phones servicing! Tsktsk. Now, I have to go to Cubao to have my phone fixed. My dad's gonna kill me (verbally). huhuhu

I have received enough karma for this month. Lord, forgive me.

Gulay, the NMAT is nearing! God bless to all of those who'd take the test. Study Kris, study.

2005-10-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

At last, the semester is over. I can't believe I got through all hard work in such a short span of time. I remember writing a pre-break post last time, and I want to share the same thing now -- except that its a 1000000x more heartfelt (of course the first one was sincere noh. hehe) Tricia, Ryan, Francine, Krissy, Rox, and Kapitbahay Dette.. I wasn't expecting we'd be this close. :) naks, drama noh. 3 semesters to go! And we are on our way to starting 15 years of slavery to med school. Tagal pa! Nyahehe.. This sem is one of the most memorable to me because I:

1. fulfilled my dream of wearing a white uniform, and a name plate
2. first had medical doctors as lecturers
3. understood the electrocardiogram results (ecgraph?. hehe)
4. learned how to use a sphygmomanometer
5. met Dr. Harry Trinidad, my soulmate. joke!! hehe
6. met -toot- and **** and #@#@# and many more
7. knew what the word "trans" means
8. had close encounter with E.coli
9. appreciated the 2.00 I got from AS years
10.first got my 2.50 on a classcard
11. lived a pseudo-independent life for more than a month
12. salivated until I had enough (5 ml) for our experiment
13. had a first taste of puto bumbong
14. had an exam for 3 straight days

A bit shallow, but it was fun. Waaah!! Its the best semester ever! :)
I sure am gonna miss u all! Kitakits sa Nov 9!

** Wait, did I mention it was my first time to enter a bar, breathe in plenty of cigarette smoke, and see a girl and a boy half naked? Tsktsk.. bad girl *** hehe

2005-09-12T11:43:00.000+08:00

WOW. I had one great weekend.
Last time, I felt like I was the happier-than-the-happiest person in the world.
The story begins with..

Last Saturday, I went to Espana for my review classes without knowing that we are going to have a finals on Sociology. MyGulay, I dont know anything about sociology except for the meaning of CULTURE -- and unfortunately, that one didn't come out on the exam, so I went through all the questions scribbling nonsense. Wahaha, it was fun, because for the first time, I didn't have to worry about flunking. Biglang nawala si GC Kris.

Lunch time came, and it was again a 'bonding moment' for or review class. Two students from La Salle, joined us at McDo Espana. Nyahaha.. The girl was silent, and didnt much like talking to us. The guy, Ray Victor, was asking about admission to medical schools and paid much attention to what I was saying about UP Medicine. Ayihee. Wala lng :) We had the same food - Savory Beef rice, except that he had an apple pie for dessert. And for me? Wala. Diet eh. hehe

Upon returning to class, I saw a guy in white shirt on the seat where I was for the AM session. YES, it was him . ayihee.. talaga naman. I sat on the next row, beside Bob's seat. A CASCADE (hehehe) of EVENTS came next...

Melissa: Hey, -toot- manonood cya (pointing to me) ng teatro.
-Toot-: Oh, talaga?@?@ tsk (While extending his hand to me, wanting me to tap it)

###OF COURSE, what would I do?###

Kris: (Extending hand, and tapping -toot-'s) Oo, manonood ako. (Sabay smile)
-Toot-: (Smile din)
Kris: Kasali ka dun?
-Toot-: hehe, ndi ako kasali sa actors, technical director ako.
Kris: haha, kala ko makikita kita sa stage...
-Toot-: ay, hindi...

###At sumunod ang walang katapusang exchange of glances### Yuk, kapal///

Before classes ended, he turned back and asked for my seatmate's name.

-Toot-: Ano name mo?
Ate: Celine Abigail

###Tapos tumitingin cya sa akin, (feeling) pero ayaw ko tumingin, I was pretending to listen to the lecture###

After class, when we were all standing up, and waiting for handouts for the classes we missed,

-Toot-: (Turning back, then facing me) Ano name mo?
Kris: Kris
-Toot-: Grace? Ah.. Grace
Kris: Hindi.. Kris (With the strong KKRRR sound)
-Toot-: Ah.. :)

And then we all went home. But before that, we smiled at each other//`~~

Ayiheee...

Haba ng post ko noh?? Meron pa yan, kaya lng malapit na mag-Anat. Cge, next time n lng ulit :)

2005-09-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

I am shy to share why, but recently, I feel like the happiest person in the world. It began last Wednesday, before I left the house for my 3rd exam in Anatomy. I feel like being born again, a feeling unexplainable and beyond description by words. Since then I have become eager to face the days ahead, with no worries, no hesitations. Hay.. :)
Speaking of eagerness, I can't wait until 8 am tomorrow! Just when I thought that my NMAT Review classes would be the most boring hours of my life, now they seem to be the most exciting! nyehehe. [To Ryan] It is not just because SOMEBODY's there, or because I have gained a lot of friends -- it's the thought of becoming a doctor someday that thrills me the most. Now it is REALLY final: I WANT TO BECOME A DOCTOR. I want to be different from others, I would like to take risks. I want to feel how it is like to be used in lengthening another's life. I want to experience how it is to be in the ER treating patients in trauma. As it is printed on my highschool yearbook,

LODROÑO, Kris T.
Missionary Doctor

I can't wait to reach out to people's souls by sharing God's goodness to me at the same time practicing my profession as a doctor.

A year and more than a half to go. Soon I'd be studying cadavers, viewing slides, and learning Medicine. More than that, I'd be preparing for the most important phase of my life - Servanthood.

2005-08-21T23:33:00.000+08:00

As you may have noticed, the previous post appears cut (but it isnt, it wasnt really finished). Instead of clicking the 'Save as Draft' button, I published the post (!!) due to external pressures (pressures daw) - I was too exited to watch 'D' Anothers'. [Movie Rating: Average. Vhong Navarro and Toni Gonzaga were both good, but the story itself was cliche. Grrr. It was only worth 66% of the money I paid to watch it. In short, naluge ako ng 44 pesos!!huhu] hehe
Ok lang nman cguro kung hindi ko na ituloy ung post? Nkalimutan ko na eh.
So heres something new (well, not really for my classmates): Ive already moved to Manila! Yahoo! The place is at a small building along Leon Guinto St [Funny though that the building itself was named after the street -- LG Building. Well, maganda na rin kc pag tinanong ako kung san ako nakatira, Id be saying only two letters for two questions (Saan? Anong tawag sa building?) Hehehe walang sense ang sinasabi ko]. I live with my sister, and its both a good and bad thing for me: good, because I'll have somebody to clean the room for me (because I can't.. I'm too busy studying. Wushu!), and bad because I really prefer living alone. Nyahaha
I have tasted independence for 6 days! Ang sarap! hehe hmm.. masaya, because you won't have to create excuses for going out and arriving late. Pero I am a bit sad because I miss my family, especially my mom, who has been very close to me lately. Naiiyak naman ako.. huhu. My mom knows a lot about me, and I share a lot of my secrets to her. Miss ko n cya kc lagi kming magkasama nung summer, kc I drive for her. Hayy.. Kahit na minsan you wont understand her reasoning, I always realize in the end that she's right, and I only misunderstood her at the very beginning.
Ang drama ko naman.
Here's the lighter part na. Last Saturday I had my NMAT review class at Brains Espana. Ahihi.. at cyempre alam ni Bob ito. Ang saya-saya ko! Hmm.. Ayaw ko ishare baka mabasa ni I.T. ito! nkakahiya! (Yuk Kris, ikaw ba yan?) Here are the highlights of my conversation with Bob while we were eating lunch at Chowking Morayta:

Bob: Halata ka na!
Kris: Nyak, hindi kaya. Baka siya!!
Together: HAHAHA Ahihihi

Hehe un lang. Basta sa interested, kwento ko na lang.
Onga pala, on my way home last Saturday, I met another guy from class. Kinausap nya ko kc nkita nya nghihintay ako ng masasakyan noon sa Espana. I wasnt able to ask for his name, pero I call him the UPLB guy, for the obvious reason that he graduated from UP Los Baños (BS Biology, Cum Laude). Woah! We shared a lot of stories during our 45-minute ride to Buendia. Sa Sta. Rosa kc nkatira, and pareho kmi ng bus terminal! Grabe, galing nya. Our conversation was spontaneous (aba), as he discussed his thesis to me. Galing galing!

Un lang.. gawin ko pa physio namin.. :)[Imissedbloggingsomuch]

2005-08-02T14:19:00.000+08:00

Yahoo! I am back to blogging! :)
2 months to go, and this helluva sem is over. yey! Exam countdown: 2(Micro) + 1 (Biochem) + 2 (Biochem lab) + 3 (Anatomy) + 2 (Biostat) + 3 (Physiology) = 13 !!
Awww.. there's still a lot pa pala. :(
I feel so tired. Every exam eve, I can't sleep - not because I haven

2005-07-06T19:28:00.000+08:00

After living 19 years of my extrauterine life, I just don't realize what all the crap I am doing now is for.
15 years in school, and 7 more to go. I have never been so damn worried in my life than I am today. Ive got two exams to take (biostat - friday; physiology - monday). I haven't even started reading that book i bought from DEBS, and I haven't read anything from Guyton and Hall either. OMG, what am I doing? Babebube, boink! (I just wanted to see that phrase there)
Anyway, here goes the serious part. Nung sinabi Chuagirl Francine, "Ayoko na mag-aral!" I answered her, "But, this is our destiny!" Waah? Alam ko na ang destiny ngaun?
Eversince that day my mom said that destiny is not the appropriate term for explaining things that are ought to occur, I have refrained from using that word, and I have replaced it with God's will in my dictionary. But there's volition, and all the cliche that comes with it. Ang gulo, at hindi ko talaga maintindihan. Sino bang nakakaalam?

2005-06-27T20:30:00.000+08:00

hmm.. on second thought, I think it would not greatly affect my study hours if I just open another window aside from Google and Microsoft Word. hehe sandali lng nman eh
I really have nothing new to share. Thanks Tricia & Francine for 'inspiring' me to write a new post. :) Mahal ko kayo - Sandara Park
Ano nga ba. I can't construct a sentence (Well, yung may sense at least). Hmm.. for the past few weeks, nothing too-exciting-to-be-blogged has happened to me. For my two brothers, wow.. they could blog everyday and write something new each time. Buti pa sila.. Wawa naman ako!
But then again, I could write about them on my blog! Kaya lang, they'd kill me if I do that.
Gtg ulit, gotta do the Physio paper.

2005-06-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

Wow, I missed blogging.
This may be my last post for this semester, as I have decided to focus (naks) on my academic duties (Isn't that what I do every semester? Nah, this sem, its different). Of course, if given time, I would love to inform you about the happenings in my life for the next few months. But I ain't sure how often.
Wow, a farewell post. Im gonna miss blogging for sure.. and it is one of the sacrifices I have to make as I enter my junior year. Aww.. dramatic
Gotta go.. I have to finish my Micro Lab Manual! :C
Im gonna miss you all!

From the anxious, stressed, tired, worried Mademoiselle GC

2005-05-03T14:04:00.000+08:00

My dad's aunt, Lola Baby (an oxymoron, huh?), arrived yesterday from Canada. Being her closest relatives, our family got most of the pasalubong out of the balikbayan box. I got 5 shirts and chocolates. My sister got an unaccountable (parang krimen ah) number of shirts, bags, towels, stuffed toys, pens, and other things that i feel she refuses to show me (Baka raw mainggit ako.hehe)Hmmp! Ang daya noh? Pero ok lang yan.. hinga na lang ako. hehe, Anyway, anything in her closet is as good as mine. :P
I MISS SCHOOL SO MUCH that I wanna go to UPM to attend classes even if I am not in the class list. Bwisita ba. haha.. Sana lang payagan ako.
Onga pala, my mother had me enrolled to piano lessons two weeks ago, and I don't like my teacher, though I think that she's very good. Attending our weekly meetings just degrades me because she makes me play too simple pieces and the room sounds like there's a 9-year-old girl sitting and doing her recital piece. Nyah! I know I am not that good, pero..pero.. alam nyo na yon..

2005-04-26T15:53:00.000+08:00

hey! sorry if my blog's a bit messed up. Im still looking for a cute skin..hehe eto muna pansamantala. later ko na lang aayusin, gtg! :)

2005-04-19T12:59:00.000+08:00

And then I became inactive.

Good news: I dont have to undergo a refresher course! I tried driving (again, it was my first in two years) from our house to Biñan through Southwoods. Yey! Hindi ko naibunggo ung kotse, pero mga 5 times ako namatayan ng engine. Nakakahiya mang sabihin, I forgot na kailangan pala ng clutch pag nagbbreak. Nyehehe.. Yuk!!
Today, I also drove the car to Pacita (To where my brother Hope takes his advanced summer classes) and to USPS (To my brother's school because he had to be enrolled). Nyahaha..Nakapag-park na rin ako sa wakas! At hindi iyon natapos dun: After eating lunch, I drove all the way to Cabuyao, Laguna upang ihatid ang aking mama sa kanyang negosyo. Ang haba nun, 20-25 KM yata. Yey!

Bad news: I lost my SIM card! Huhu.. Actually, it was not me, but my GREAT brother IVAN. Grr! I hate him, but what can I do? The phone was his anyway, and naging akin lang yon because it was confiscated from him as he was engaging for too many hours texting his juvenile girlfriend. Nagkataong nasira ang aking tunay na phone. WALA TULOY AKONG PHONE NGAYON! Hay.. so sad. Pero I learned that I can survive a day without my phone. Himala! SURVIVAL COUNT: a week and a few days.

GC updates: I got all of my grades, except for SocSci II. Dr. Lu told the class that the release of classcards would be at the date of registration for summer classes (which was last week, April 14). I went to school yesterday to get my other cards and still, the SocSciII cards were not available. Huhu.. Ang GC noh? Wala lang!

2005-04-14T12:10:00.000+08:00

Brain Tests.
I decided to take brain tests as the GC me is beginning to come back. haha. Actually I am at a computer shop near the school waiting for my brother to finish all his requirements for readmission. nyahaha. I got 3 of my classcards and I am going to post my grades maybe next week (When I have all of my classcards already), as I have done last semester. Kc diba promise ko un sa pioneer entry ko? [Recall: "Get Ready for the GCest entries you'll ever read!] *Waiting for my XDA* yabang! joke lang.. hehe chigechige

Your Brain is
60.00% Female,
40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix
of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you
tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear
your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Hmm. I knew I was still female though my mom tells me sometimes to stop acting like a little BOY. nyahaha Sometimes I am thinking of what could possibly happen if the hormones which stimulated the development of my gonads were that for males. (Naks, zoo yan). Hmm..

You Are 65% Left Brained, 35% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability,
attention to detail, and reasoning.

Left brained people are good
at communication and persuading others.

If you're left brained,
you are likely good at math and logic.

Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity
and flexibility.

Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the
world in their unique way.

If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for
creative writing and art.

Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy,
and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

OoOoh. I am left-brained. BARBERO! Ndi naman ako magaling sa communication eh. hehe

Your EQ is

120

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

You Are Pretty Logical

(You got 50% of the questions right)

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic

While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good

Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

How Logical Are You?

I am only pretty logical. Bakit hindi beautifully? nyahaha corny

2005-04-13T12:51:00.000+08:00

I just arrived home from LTO. My mom got her non-professional license while my sister got her student's permit as she is planning to take driving lessons for the summer. As for me, I was just waiting there for them to finish with their deals. Ive already got my license but I think I have lost my driving skills -- THANKS to my dad, my brothers, and sometimes my mom for discouraging me to drive. Ahh.. back then I remember when I was a fresh drving school graduate -- they would let me drive the car, and then each of them would start yelling "Stop the car!", "Ahhh!", "Haha. Shift to the 2nd gear please!!!" and things like that that you wouldn't want to hear especially if you are only starting to drive. Duh? Eh ikaw kaya ang mag-drive nang ngaun ka pa lang natuto at hindi ka umatend ng kahit anong seminar na inoffer nung school. Shot -- nakakainis tlga. Now I owe them for missing those times when I should have been driving a car to school or some place with my friends. Grr.. and now they are planning to get me a REFRESHER course? Ah! Ang sakit non sa damdamin noh. I know its partly my fault. But if they had just let me practice driving using our car I could have been driving better. But they didnt. The boys would always take the wheel off my hands. Imagine all the days I spent 2 summers ago learning how to drive with that teacher who has that i-think-my-student-has-a-crush-on-me syndrome. Oops. I forgot we have learned a new term for that -- AMORITIC. ahaha Now they are going to enroll me again to 10 hours of that? Hay.. I don't know if I can go through all this again. But then Ive got nothing to do this summer, so I guess I won't let this chance pass me by.
Im gonna be a good driver someday. Better than my dad and my kuya. Hmmp!

2005-04-12T17:50:00.000+08:00

After reading my college friends' blogs, aww.. I somehow missed them. The sudden break from Anatomy and OrgChem I am experiencing right now is both relieveing and depressing. Relieveing, as my worries are over, and Depressing, as I miss my routines back at school.
I can't make my entry as dramatic as Ryan's , as I am not a good writer, but I would like to say the same things. I am thankful for all my friends, who shared sad thoughts with me after every exam in Anatomy and Chem which killed our social lives a bit. And so I dedicate this entry to them (naks)..
Ryan, Rox, Dette, Krissy, Tricia, Francine, Sharon.. Miss ko na kayo lahat! I pray that the next semester wouldn't give us much stress as this last one. Sana maiplano natin ang lahat nang tama. :)

2005-04-10T17:34:00.000+08:00

Today, the Sunday morning air is different. I had always known this would happen, as the cliche goes, the truth is inevitable. But I wasn't expecting it would be this soon.. the news came as a shock, even to myself.
A public confession at our church is to happen, and it involves two of the people I regard with utmost respect. They are the leaders of our youth organization, two of the most people least expected by all to commit such a sin. Whew, how the devil works in such unexpected ways so as to topple the church and the believers.
Even though it seems (or maybe is) resolved, I still can't get it off my mind. You cannot blame me, because I had always given them my trust and I looked up much to them. Even though we had always suspected that something was going on between them, they would always prove our thoughts wrong as they would deny them.
Through this experience I have proved that sin is so powerful it can make any person even the unimaginable.
I suggest we should be watchful. Always.

2005-04-08T17:00:00.000+08:00

Waah! I forgot to tell you what happened when Chai, Vangie, and I met. hehe.. haba na kasi nung last post ko.
As we have planned the day's events, we watched a movie. Actually, I told Chai that we were to watch a horror film (Hide and Seek). But when we were at the booth, we decided to watch Sandra Bullock's instead, ehehe because Hide and Seek seems not too scary. Miss Congeniality 2 is a good film, but it is not that excellent. haha I suggest you watch Hide and Seek instead.
And of course, our day wouldn't be complete without something to make us remember the happenings of that day. So, we went to Kameraworld, and had pictures of us three taken by the antipatikong phototgrapher (Grrr.. how we hate him!). Although the pictures turned out good, we still hate that man. Hmmph! Kung hindi lang mura sa shop niyo!!!!!
We were talking of .. I can't remember hehe.. while walking, when Vangie (was it her, or Chai?) suggested a sleepover at our house. I said its alright, and then "ngayon na?" Wahaha Voila! A plan was made. With no extra clothes, pajamas, and fully-charged cellphone batteries (Chai? ehehe), and with just a text message sent to Vangie's mother and a call made to Chai's brother, Vangie and Chai headed for Laguna from Robinson's Place Ermita. Yeyeyey!
We ate, I slept (because they watched Full House from my mama's collection..hhehe) and then watched Full House again the next morning. I was always talking about Jessie and was like "ay, ung parang kay Jessie..", "uy! si Jessie", "Jessie! Jessie!". Sa makatuwid, mukha akong Jessie. Puro Jessie na lang sinasabi ko. Parang ngayon. hehe manood kayo ng Full House!
Hay that night was as unforgettable as the time I spent with them the day before. Salamat sa inyo! :) :)

2005-04-07T16:01:00.000+08:00

Vacation Time is the time for long posts. Get Ready! Haha

While talking through YM Evangeline (haha) last week, she and I decided to meet in Manila. There would be no classes then, and no exams to worry about. So we agreed on the plan immediately. Yet I found one thing hard to do: pa'ano ako magpapaalam? Classes and exams are over. Why'd go to Manila and spend PhP 100 on bus fare and about PhP 100+ for food when you can stay and eat at home? My answer to that: to experience being with the people I love the most again [yeah, after about 2 months (Vangie), and a semester (Chai)]. As a solution, Evan texted me something like this last Tuesday evening: "Dude, tuloy ba tayo tomorrow? Kung hindi pwede, wag na lang. Wag ka magsinungaling." Hehe. Sira talaga 'tong si Vangie. When was the time I lied to my mom about going out with you, my friend? hehe. No, I haven't committed such a sin (as far as I can remember). Yet after a while, I began to smile. Vangie has changed a lot. As in A LOT. I don't know the exact details of how she came to know Christ and Christian ways, but for sure I am very grateful to those people who helped her through. Being her friend for over four years, I know I should have been the one to have introduced her to the Bible and talked to her about salvation. Yet I guess, I was too shy then. I regret those times when I had the chance. Thank God for the people He used in UP Diliman who lead Vangie to Christ. She is such a special soul.

All the while I thought that I would become unChristian as I entered highschool. I was thirteen then, and was forced to stay in my grandma's house in Manila because my parents were worrying that I wouldn't be able to have enough time to study if I would travel to Manila from Laguna everyday. Ooops.. wrong word. I wasn't forced exactly, because I really enjoyed my stay at Nanay's. I grew up in her house until I was four, when in 1990, we moved to San Pedro because my parents bought a house there. I love Nanay so much, and now its a sad thing that she aint living with us now (May storya din ito, but I think it would be too degrading to tell you all about it here). And so back to my highschool story. I was (and am) thanking God because I was kept in track as I found a true Christian friend -- Christine Villafranca, who is now fondly called Chai. We had the same beliefs, and belonged to the same denomination (Baptist). I am so blessed to have an influence such as her's, which was not too strict nor liberated. She would always have the best advice for each problem, and it was as if she knew all of the Bible. To have such a friend is like -- having an instant pastor beside you everyday? Hehe, just joking. The feeling is really different -- contrary to what most people think of about being constrained in conservative traditions and strict 'holy' ways, the times I spent with Chai had those moments of being free with allowances for making mistakes. Overcoming them with a wonderwoman (hehee) was a fortifying experience. Too bad we had to part ways, as she didn't prefer to engage in a medical profession, and chose to become a Physicist (Woohoo! Go Chai! Pambato ka namin jan sa ADMU!).

Every now and then as some of you may have noticed, I have devoted my time making entries about my highschool life and friends. More than being thankful for the years of friendship, I am most thankful that they know Christ and I am sure to meet them in heaven. Friends forever, nga naman (forgive the cliche, hihi). I love you my friends!! :)

2005-04-04T15:08:00.000+08:00

Eventhough the exemption list was out and I was in it, I decided to take the final exam in chem 31. Most people really don't see any reason why I should, but I have decided to take it months ago, eversince I received the result of the first departmental exam (a discrediting 51/100.. joke. I know I am still blessed to get such a score). I have 5 days to study for the exam, I thought. But my plans proved futile. haha In short, I started studying just Saturday evening. Ahaha. speaking of procrastination!
After taking the exam this morning, I know I just wasted my time studying. I SHOULDN'T HAVE TAKEN THE EXAM. I should have been eating and watchin TV with my siblings. To be able to get a 1.75 in my classcard, I have to get 95 points in the finals. Where the h*ll would I get such? I wasnt able to answer the second problem right. [Hernie, I guess my 'panata' is over.] To get a 2.0, I have to get an 82, and for a 2.25, a 72.
Ah!-ah! [ala-Maek] Those are so over my powers. Especially after knowing that I am least 65% sure that I got the answers right. Hello, 2.5..
Sure I am hoping that another miracle would happen just like that of last semester. Yet as I see it, and as my brother has always reminded me, Ma'am Yao aint like Sir Engle who'd give you credit for the final exam. I need prayers.
AN EXAM TO GO, and then more than a month to relax. Thank God this semester is over.

2005-03-15T19:11:00.000+08:00

At last, summer is here!
(I'm still waiting there.. winter is here.. I'm still waiting there.. haha)
The nights of my sufferings are soon to be ended. No more 4 a.m. naps, Bacchus-gulping, Kent-browsing (browsing na lang kc I dont have time to read the whole chapter.), & cat-dissecting. Only 5 major written exams to go, an oral exam, and I on my way to Nirvana.
Time runs so fast that I couldn't help but daydream that I am going to be on my third year in college next semester. It seems that high school graduation happened only a few months ago, and I couldn't even remember clearly my freshmen years at UPM. Of course, excluding EK's memories. hehe joke. So many changes took place and I am left wondering how they just passed by. Hay.. soon, I'll be on med school, and later on, a housewife (hehe yuk).
Today, I felt a little thrill & disgust at the same time upon listening to my sister's story. She told me that at lunchtime, Matthew's mother called her and asked, "Hey, kamusta na si Kris?"
If you don't know Matthew, lemme give u an introduction. hehe Kuya Matthew and I met at an online Christian network, and since then, we started sending text messages to each other. Of course, I enjoyed our conversations and began to like him, because aside from being a Christian, he is also smart. And I just couldnt help but have a crush on him. And so, months passed and 2 weeks ago he confronted me. He was like asking if I have a crush on him. HALLER? I just hate guys who do that. How dare him ask me! Grr. I got so angry and irritated so I stopped replying to his messages. Now his mother always talks to my sister, asking why the sudden change.
So here's the continuation of my sister's story. Matthew's mother's actions were shocking. I actually screamed when I heard my sister's first lines, and began saying "ohmigosh." A Kumare of his mother was there too, whose daughter is my batchmate. So they were like so in to the Matthew-Kris story which I think doesn't deserve that much attention. And guess what -- This kumare even told my sister (while pertaining to Matthew's mom): "Oh, eto nga pala ung magiging biyenan niya." My gulay! I haven't thought of marrying him even. When my mom hears this, she's going to laugh. Hard. really. hehe ExtraSuperUltra funny.
Weird even. hehe and Matthew ain't courting me.
Enough of ridiculous things. I am going to start with my SocSci II final paper.

2005-02-28T16:23:00.000+08:00

Mr. Christopher Jay T. Robidillo is among the best professors in UP Manila. Not only is he so smart, but he also knows and understands the limitations of his students.
Too bad that this was our last day of experiments for organic chemistry. Gosh, I'll miss those mornings where my partner Rox and I would wash glasswares and use the dilapidated droppers and bottles for the reagents. And of course, I would miss those chances of talking with my crush, Sir Robby. :) I really admire him because he is so humble and I feel that he really loves us. hehe If only.. :P I believe there's still chance. hehe
We werent able to synthesize aspirin because most of our (actually my fault) were consumed by the synthesis of soap. Am I that stupid? Why did it take me two days to finish just a simple experiment? I feel so useless. I wasnt able to weigh our crude soap before I dissolved it. Arrggghhh
1,2,3,4,5.. Ive only got 5 nights to study for our Chem lec exam. Huhu.. I am not used to getting scores in the range of 50-60 (That's why I cried when I failed 1 exam last sem). Why cant I get an 80 or a 70 even? Huhu Indolencia.. hehe (PI100). MAybe I am being punished because I have committed too many sins this sem.

2005-02-24T20:07:00.001+08:00

My classmates know why I am so annoyed these days. The events which happened on the day before yesterday really troubled me (yep, until my sleep). The feeling is so different -- sometimes I wanna bang on HIS door and shout in his face, "ANG KAPAL NG MUKHA MO!" but then its impossible-- because I don't even know where his house is.
Arrgh. I really hate this. I even wished I didn't join Christianster. Gosh. I am so stupid.

2005-02-22T18:55:00.000+08:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2005-02-20T20:43:00.000+08:00

I am happy to see my sister smile again.
She has been acting so irritated these days. (And I believe that it is partly my fault.) I feel so guilty of not being a good sister to her. Actually I miss those days when we played with our dolls, talked about our crushes, had math and science lectures, ate together, and almost do everything together. She has really been sweet to me, but sometimes, I just don't like her being around. I think that I have the "ATE" (elder sis) Syndrome. My friend Vangie told me once that she got irritated with her "ate" because she wouldn't let her sleep in THEIR bed. Actually, I believe that "ate"s naturally undergo this stage when they hate their female siblings. Is it just jealousy? Maybe. But I don't think so. (pride)
Of course I love my sister Jill. She's my number one fan (I think). hehe She was the only one who'd give me compliments everyday in our family. Parang siya ung nanay na proud sa anak. hehe Aww.. I miss her.
I feel so stupid for acting such. hay..
By the way, the reason why she (my sister) is so happy now, is because she passed the UPCAT. Now, we're going to be schoolmates. hehe
*BAD NEWS: I gained 5-10 pounds yata. OMG. I am starting to get fat again. Huhu. I cant control myself anymore when it comes to eating. Gosh, I'll start my diet tomorrow.

2005-02-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

It has been a week since my last post. I miss my blog.*kiss* hehe
This week hasn’t been that much hell as Ive expected (and not like those previous weeks). Tuesday was a near-hell experience, though.
I had my plans: Sunday and Monday evenings would be my time to study for my Zoology Laboratory Exam. Arrgh. I haven’t been listening to the professor, because every Wednesdays (Zoo Lab class), I usually am too tired to read the manual and prepare for class. Add to that my tardiness: class is scheduled to start at 7 am, but I come to class at 830 am.
*$#6! They were just plans. And I made no promises to keep them. I started studying for the exam only Monday evening. I read the introduction to the chapter about the Urogenital System, and then I decided to get some sleep at 11 pm.
I woke up at 730 am, and then realized that I haven’t studied the latter major parts of the reviewers yet. I have class @ 830, and it would be impossible to prepare myself and my things for school and travel in one hour. Therefore, I skipped classes that day.
The exam was scheduled to be at 6 pm. Dahil nakonsyensya ako, I came to school too early for the exam at 4 pm.
The Lord still has been good to me: I didn’t know the exam has been moved to start at 5 pm. I was 1 hr early.
While I was entering the school gates (in detail pa talaga), I felt dizzy and cold. Yes, nilagnat pa ko bago mag-exam. I thought I wouldn’t be able to take the exam because I had terrible headache. Thanks to my classmates na kumulit at nagcomfort sa akin. And thanks to Dette and Ryan na pumunta pa ng Mercury Drug across Taft Ave. upang ibili ako ng biogesic (which costs PhP 2 each. Would you believe it is that cheap? Woah grabe)
I forced myself to take the exam because I had no other choice. Inside the laboratory it was so hot, that I was really sweating while taking the exam. Un lang pala kailangan ko para mawala lagnat ko.
Tuloy ko n lng kwento ko next tym. hehe

2005-02-09T21:56:00.001+08:00

Twenty three questions to be answered as an essay each. I hate Soc Sci II! (The exam part only)

Today was our Soc Sci II mid-term exam, and it was badly set because I had an exam yesterday. If you’ve read my previous post, you’d know that I haven’t been gaining that much sleep. So last night, I slept as much as I can. Haha. I was too confident about the exam (SocSciII), because I was expecting that it’d be easy. But it turned out that I was wrong. Huhu

I also attended SOD’s weekly LIFE meeting. I have been attending for about 3x, and I am starting to feel comfortable with the people. Actually, I have met Ate Chrish (the group leader) since my freshman years through Ema. At first, I was attending weekly cell group meetings, but since Chem 27, and afterwards, Zoo 102 and Chem 31, I can’t spend time anymore with the group. But now, since the meeting fitted perfectly to my sched, I can’t let any chance of regaining spiritual strength and meeting Christian friends pass me by. As I have been telling you, my spiritual life is a bit low right now. But hey, not just a bit – it is way down low.

I enjoyed listening to Kuya Carlo’s message about winning souls for Christ, and his side stories about UP life, and other things. He quoted somebody, “The reason why people fear death is because after dying, they would realize that they had not lived at all.” And I was struck right through the heart. I am not afraid of death, but I am afraid of what would happen after death. I am afraid that I have not been living at all – that I am not using this life to do my responsibility as a Christian, that is, to win souls for Christ. How could I be such a hypocrite – professing myself as a Christian, yet not making people feel that Christ has really changed me? How could I be so ungrateful? Selfish? Arrgh. I hate myself.

How I wish I had somebody to talk to about these things.

2005-02-08T18:32:00.000+08:00

500 ml of Bacchus energy drink kept me going.
Our second exam for zoology was set today, and we were to read 5 chapters of the ever-loved Comparative Vertebrate Anatomy by Kent and Carr. And because I am the queen of procrastination, I started reading the book last Sunday and was able to finish reading 3 chapters only.
1:00 - 1:30 p.m. Organic Chemistry lab class ends, Rox and I ate lunch at the GAB cafeteria and parted ways because I had to go to CPH
1:30 - 2:00 p.m. I entered the OCS, presenting a picture and an affidavit of loss. I willingly lost my ID. hehe I also received letter about the academic scholarships for my classmates and myself.
2:00 - 3:30 p.m. Travel time, I was hoping to read a few pages of the book while at the bus, but Hypnos (GKNB?) passed by and I was put to a sleep.
3:30 - 4:30 p.m. Upon arriving at the village entrance, I decided to get a haircut. I wanted a new look when I study. [I often look at the mirror while studying. Somehow seeing an image of myself inspires me to continue reading. haha]
4:30 - 6:00 p.m. I watched MTV, ate bread, rice, meat, chocolates, and almost everything I found in the fridge. haha *guilt*
6:00 p.m. I decided to STOP eating and induced myself to vomit. hehe joke lang. I decided to start reading the book. I have actually finished reading the 1st chapter last Saturday. So I started reading the next chapter about vertebrae, etc.
8 p.m. I finished reading the chapter. 3 more to go! It took me that long because I often took breaks by playing the piano and mirror gazing. Mom arrived at about 9:30, and she gave me 2 250-ml cans of Bacchus, which Ive asked her to buy for me. I gulped the contents of the 1st can, and it tasted good (though Ryan said that it tasted somewhat like cough syrups,etc). whehe Actually I was addicted to it, so about an hour later, the next can's content was consumed.
2:00 a.m. I finished reading the 3rd chapter. This was the hardest chapter to read, I should say. It dealt with the skull and visceral skeleton of craniates. whew. I had to memorize the membrane bones of the dermatocranium, and their origins in different vertebrates. Sounds difficult, and it really is. But I enjoyed it. hehe
2:00 a.m. - 3:00 a.m. After feeling such an accomplishment of reading the chapter on the skull, I suddenly felt that I need not study the next chapters anymore. So I played the piano (while everyone's sleeping, hehe. I was continually playing "The Voice of the Heart" by Henri Von Gael. Nakakarindi na nga yata. hehe I was also trying to play Fur Elise, but I just can't do it as Beethoven did. I am no Maksim like my Kuya Ivan. This summer I promise! I am going to take piano lessons at Yamaha.) until I felt the GC me again. I rushed to the table and started reading the first quarter pages of the next chapter. I had slight headache, and closed my eyes for a few minutes, and then I decided that Id skip the 4th chapter and start reading the last chapter, the chapter about muscles.
5:00 a.m. I started fixing myslef and my things. I prepared too early for school, and arrived at the bus station, at about 5:20 a.m.
6:15 a.m. I arrived at school. With dim lights, I went up to the 3rd floor of the GAB to check if our room was open. I decided to stay at the RH-GAB corridor and read some handouts given to us by our professor. And oh, I bought cheese bread and water pala for breakfast.
7:45 a.m. I went to see if anyone of my classmates are already present. I saw Esther, from the other PH block.
** at 8:30 a.m. Mam de Guzman arrived carrying the test papers. As she came near to our room, I sadly reflected upon myself: suddenly, I just wanted to quit. School life was just too hard. Aside from not sleeping at all, I feel that I have neglected my responsibilities as a Christian. I can feel that I am spiritually degrading, and the feeling is scary. I owe too much to the Lord.
How I wish that He would give me the peace I have long been praying for.
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Chai dude! Sorry. Mejo nagmamadali na ako s aking last entry. I was not able to mention specific things about you because they are just too many. hehe Sa akin na lang un. Kaw pa rin si best dude ever. hehe :) love you!

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2005-01-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

This day has been one of the happiest days of my life.
I met five of my closest friends from high school hours ago: Chai, Vangie, Tom, Clarize, and Jane. [this may sound corny, but I cant express myself in other words] They are the most wonderful people on earth.
Reminiscing high school days makes me laugh at our innocence and simple desires. The codes we've made for almost every familiar face at school, the daily flag ceremonies, the missing BM notebook, the Jane-Rod, Jane-PM, and Chai-Ombao affairs (hehe), the Physics and Research classes [which we usually cut], funny pictures, childish attitudes, misunderstandings, and many other things make me yearn to go back to high school. Life back then was as not as complex as my life at the present; and it was not as happy. There was not too much pressure; and even in simple things we have found something to laugh at. The four years I spent in high school were those which I would not forget, ever.
I missed everyone, especially Jane, Tom, and Clarize. I have never met any of them for the past year before we met today. Jane is studying at PLM, and is a Dean's Lister with Magna Cum Laude standing. She hasn't changed a lot; except that she had been more sexy and beautiful (yihee! true!). She was the same Jane, or Maricris we knew: bold, friendly, and talkative. Tom Bryan Magnaye from UP Diliman is the greatest/best/most amazing/most talented/most brilliant mathematician I have ever known. I learned that for all his math courses, he got 1.00 as final grade. In one subject, though there was a flaw. He received a 1.25, and he wasn't happy with that. haha nakakabaliw Clarize/Moritz, also from UPD, is the true example of the beauty-and-brains. Simple, cute, and beautiful. And as always, she gets good grades from school. We were all shocked to know that she had a boyfriend: she's actually the second in the group to have one *next to the ever-beautiful vangie. haha
And of course, I badly miss Chai and Vangie. Since we stepped into university life, we had always made sure that we meet once in a while. And we have always found time to do so, in spite of busy scheds and the distance they had to travel to go to Padre Faura. I had also wished to visit them in Katipunan and Diliman, yet sadly, I have no time to do so. Puro Hirap kasi eh. Soon I will.
I realized that truly, my high school friends would forever be my friends. I love you all! :)

2004-12-31T08:11:00.000+08:00

This picture of my 'sister' and me was taken in Intramuros last December 20, 2004.

2004-12-27T01:57:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas! Whew. What an exhausting day. 2005 is 4 days away, and that means manmy academic life would be on active mode again. Ayaw ko na magaral!

I’m excited to share what we experienced last Christmas. For the past few years, I have been made to believe (hehe) that it is a family tradition to visit Baguio at least once in a year (We visit Baguio very often). Those visits usually take place every Christmas, and that visit wouldn’t be complete without one family which has been so close to us ever since I was a kid. We and the Abrasaldos had been through many trips, misunderstandings, church-transfers (hehe) and countless other experiences. I guess what made our relationship with them last this long was that they have been really good and true friends and that the Lord has guided the friendship all along.

And so here’s the story. We stayed in Baguio for 3 days and 2 nights. And what we did were those things that a usual family visiting Baguio would do. We stayed in a hotel (which was the same hotel where we stayed last year). Before we reached the hotel, we went through a series of seemingly never-ending maneuvers and turns. It turned out that Tito Edsel has forgotten the exact location of the hotel. Haha
While in Baguio, all that I can do was eat. I guess I gained a couple of pounds this school break. I can’t afford to gain that much significant weight! (After all the hardships I’ve been through? No way. Haha I remember my mom saying that I’ve become too maarte. Before I wasn’t so conscious about gaining weight, and that I even said before that I really don’t care if I was obese or not. But after I lost all the weight I’ve been too much involved in counting calories, etc.)
We went to PMA, Camp John Hay, and the immortal Burnham Park. And of course, any trip (for me) wouldn’t be complete without SHOPPING! I was given PhP 500 to spend on whatever I like. Kulang nga eh. I wasn’t even able to buy Peanut Brittle and Ube. L
While on our way home we stopped at a gasoline station. The brake of the Abrasaldos’ Toyota Lite Ace had to be fixed, and so we had to wait for over an hour. While chatting and waiting for the car to be fixed, Mia left the keys of the Sentra locked inside! Waah! Another Problemo! And we haven’t eaten supper yet.
We suggested that they look for other Sentras and ask if they could try their keys on the car. One Sentra arrived, and immediately they approached the driver and asked for his help.
The guy was a 19-year-old Philippine Military Academy Student. (He was so cute! We actually had a crush on him.) He was running towards the car and immediately he tried his key on the back compartment of the car. Still, the car didn’t open. L This guy’s brother (kapatid niya ba tlga un?) suggested that we go seek for a locksmith’s services. The PMAer told his brother to accompany Tito Edsel and Tita Anne to the place since we weren’t familiar with the directions. They even used his car! .. Sana nakasakay ako dun. He was left in the gasoline station to talk with my dad. Hehe.. and of course, I was there, pretending to listen to the conversation (But of course, I didn’t just pretend, I really listened. Hehe). And soon his brother came with the news that the locksmith would arrive in 45 minutes. We had to wait that long.
And so we waved goodbye to the good-hearted cutie. L,
To make the long story short, the problem was fixed after 2 hours. Hayy.. we were all eager to go home.
I believe my post has been too long. And I’m kinda sleepy. G’nyt!!

Intramuros

2004-12-21T09:07:00.000+08:00

To rate what happened last night in a scale of 1-10, I am giving it an 8.
I had a great time. Hmm.. yet I feel so incomplete. I can’t tell you all why, because this blog is public and that SOMEBODY might read my secret.
The plan was to get a breath of air at Intramuros. Yet, what happened was that we didn’t go straight to the place. Pastor del Rosario didn’t know exactly where Intramuros was at first, so he drove us to Roxas Blvd (the place near Manila Bay where there are lights, restaurants, and bands). The place was cool (cool, as in malamig).Wahaha. Kakainis nga eh. While watching one band perform, I was actually singing with the vocalist. What I didn’t know was that Valentino was taping the whole thing. Waah! Now they’d know how different I look when I sing. Wehehe with all emotions and hand swings pa un. Huhuhu How embarrassing. [Cute kaya ako dun? Wehehe]
After spending less than an hour there, we decided to head for Intramuros. The place was just 5 minutes away from the baywalk. Haha lapit lang pala noh
We walked and walked and walked and walked all night hehe. [And I liked it, because its good exercise. Calorie-burning!] I bought a small pink wallet with a strawberry patch for PhP 100. Yehey! [I guess I can’t stand a day without buying something new for myself. Wow. How selfish of me.] What I saw in that visit to Intramuros were not new, because I’ve been in there with my family and some friends a year ago. [This is the dramatic part] But what made the feeling unique was that I spent the night with my new friends in our new church. Having such people who share the same beliefs is enough to make me feel that I have something to be proud of my faith. I am also grateful to our pastor and his wife, who had always been there on our [youth] side (yes, literally. They are always present wherever we go. hehe). Of course, without them, we wouldn’t even be allowed to go with the others to Intramuros. Hehe

Grrr

2004-12-20T09:57:00.000+08:00

To continue my story, a VERY sad experience happened to me and my siblings yesterday. After the concert, we were supposed to stay in the Lazo’s with the church’s youth to have a small fellowship and relax after the concert. Mommy_mama already said yes (but we didn’t know that it had a condition: that my elder bro’s girlfriend shouldn’t be there). So I guess you already know what happened. Kuya’s GF, uninvited (according to many), made her entrance, and that immediately meant our exit (although literally, we weren’t inside the Lazo’s yet).

Aaarghh. Im trying to find ways not to get angry with my Kuya’s two-faced-14-year-old girlfriend ever since we found out the truth about their relationship, but this event just turned my anger to wrath. (Although she gave me a gift yesterday morning, after the dry run of our concert). I know I’m too cruel, and if she reads this I know she’d say that I myself am two-faced too. Haha.. I appear so nice to her, but deep inside, I want to strangle her (figuratively). The Jelly Sister ~o~

I hope my bro’s not reading this. I don’t want us to fight again. The last quarrel we had something to deal with his illegal relationship. Bwahaha

Oh well, enough of the sad part. To compensate for the partying my siblings and I weren’t able to experience (haha, feeling), another “bonding moment” [wahaha non-polar] is to happen tonight. Yey!! Of course, mommy_mama uttered the “conditional yes” again. Blessed (is this the right term?) we are that Kuya’s GF didn’t know about the event, and so she couldn’t come. [Or did she really know about it, but decided not to come because she also knew about the thing that happened last night? Waah Paranoia] Yehey!! – cruel

Hey, gtg. Its semi-vanity time (Im not as vain as my two brothers are, theirs is what I consider vanity—or rather vanity to the extreme).

BIG

2004-12-19T09:18:00.000+08:00

THE BIG DAY.
Our church choir performed at the Festival Mall in Alabang. My assigned work – to be the narrator. Thank God I was placed in a position that many people couldn’t see haha.. because if not, I would stutter. [I’m still wondering why they chose me to be the narrator. There are many better public speakers in our church than I am. I am not even good. 1.75 for Comm III, remember?]

Before the concert began, we had to parade through the mall’s food court, and give balloons to children (which I think, is exclusively for them, but it turned out that some adults felt like they were children too nakipagagawan pa). Hehe. I gave my four balloons to 2 children and 2 adults. [Hhhmmp!]

I had fun, of course. Being with my churchmates makes my life happier than when I am in toxic school. In church, there are no things to worry about – no papers, no exams, no deadlines – you just have to sit, listen to God’s word, and enjoy the fellowship. I have always wished that life would be just as fun. But then I realized that I cannot. Life without the hardship isn’t exciting either. Plus, its my chance to meet unbelievers and share to them God’s word. But I cant, right now. I feel so useless and ungrateful.

After the concert we were all relieved. No more late Saturday and Sunday night practices. [But I’m going to miss that part]

I’ve invited Kuya Matthew to watch our concert but he said he couldn’t come [because they also had to sing in another church]. By the way, I call him Einstein, because he’s really smart. When I talk to him, I feel so little. We were schoolmates in grade school. [He’s 23, so I don’t know if he was still in school when I was in Jr. Kinder]. In turn, he calls me Sexy, because he knows that I really am. Hehehe joke :P

Bye, gotta sleep. I’ll continue my story tomorrow :)

Just Read

2004-12-18T09:03:00.000+08:00

It’s a day before the big day, and I haven’t slept well.
I had to wake up at 5 o’clock in the morning to take a bath and get ready for a Christmas party for our employees (we’re in a bakery business). I really wasn’t that excited to go because its too early and I am really afraid of seeing tons of food (calories)..
Well, it turned out that I overcame my fear. Ahaha.. I think Ive eaten too much.. L The party was fine, and I think the employees enjoyed the program too.
Aaaarrggg I need a calorie calculator.. wait..

[Food Item, Serving Size, Fat Grams per Serving, Calories per Serving, No. of Servings, Calorie Subtotal]
1. rice cakes, 1, .4, 35 cal, 2, 70.00 cal
2. oil, corn, 1 Tbsp., 14, 120 cal, 1, 120.00 cal
3. ice cream, soft serve (vanilla), 1/2 cup, 12, 189 cal, 1, 189.00 cal
4. rice, white, 1/2 cup, 1, 159 cal, 1, 159.00 cal
5. peanut butter, 2 Tbsp., 16, 190 cal, 1, 190.00 cal
6. fish, mackerel (pacific), 3.5 oz., 8, 159 cal, 1, 159.00 cal
7. spaghetti sauce, jar (meat flavor), 1/2 cup, 6, 100 cal, 2, 200.00 cal
8. pasta, spaghetti (enriched), 1 cup, 1, 159 cal, 1, 159.00 cal
9. rolls, yeast (sweet), 1, 8, 198 cal, 2, 396.00 cal

Calorie Grand Total = 1542.00 cal

Yeah!! I found one!! J Waah.. but I really overate.. L How frustrating.. Gtg, bye!!

Toxicity and [Read down]

2004-12-17T08:57:00.000+08:00

These are the two things that I am currently busy with. School is giving me and my classmates a hard time; especially those anatomy lecture and laboratory classes which require us to memorize so many terms. On the other hand I enjoy them too; especially the taxonomic classification of animals. I found out that humans are from the Infraorder Prosimii and the Suborder Catarrhini. Pigs are from Order Artiodactyla, and the Suborder Suiformes. (Pigs just make me remember something.) Hehe.. I enjoy sounding too scientific. Actually, I had this funny experience (which I’ve already shared to my blockmates) about my taxonomic hallucinations. While I was brushing my teeth, I saw a lizard creeping down the walls of my mom’s bathroom. Ahaha, to my shock, I shouted the word, “Lacertilia!!” [My classmates laughed when I said this word] It was really unintentional!! Lizards are from the suborder Lacertilia, btw J
Aside from the anatomy class, we also have this organic chemistry class. My bro said that this sem, chem would be easier (Chem 27 is a lot harder). But I cant see the difference. I find it difficult to study the nomenclature, etc.. When would academic life seem easy??
[WARNING: This is a secret, I hope “he” does not get to read this. I have a crush on my chemistry lab professor, who is my kuya’s batchmate. He graduated last March as Magna cum laude, and was 5th on the chemistry board exam. Wanna know the other details? Ask me. Hehe joke lang. Anyway, he is very impressive. The only thing is, he’s gay (yata). Aww, sad. Sayang! Oh well, crush lang naman –cliché—hehe. Yihee, kakakilig every Mondays and Thursdays]
Enough of the school stuff. I am battling with another serious problem. I want to loose weight. For those who had known me for a long time would understand why I want to do this. I have already lost 60 pounds, but Id like to loose 20 more. I want to be a size S. hahaha..
And as part of my plans, I want to become a bulimic.
Everytime I think about it, I get scared. Ive watched TV programs about this; and they all point to one thing: don’t ever dare try induced vomiting. But how am I supposed to loose all these weight easily?.. I want fast results. haha I don’t care about the RDA or whatever, all I know is that I want to loose weight. After that, I’d live a healthy life once more. I know I sound selfish. Actually, I would be researching later about the technique :P I know I can control myself if I want to.. Those who could provide me enough info, please text me at 09175447480
The latter 3 paragraphs were a joke. Hehehe
About 3 hours ago I was talking to ate jam, and I had a great time. We were talking about things both serious and not so. Haha Thanks ate jam for being a friend :)
Bye, gotta go to sleep. :)

The Christmas break is nearing!! yahoo!

2004-12-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

Yey! A few more weeks to go, and I am off again, sleeping in my bed and putting all academic worries behind. '~' I can't wait '~'
Last night, I attended the UP Manila Chorale's 14th concert. 4 of my classmates (2 of them, my blockmates, Tricia and Shawie :)) are trainees of the chorale and participated in the said concert. After watching, I felt like I want to join the chorale too ^_^ But then the coming toxicity of my third year in Public Health discouraged the feeling. hay.. Its because joining the chorale means attending practices TF, 7-10 pm. :( And I just can't place that in my schedule.
I had a very long weekend. Classes were suspended (and exams too) from Thursday til Saturday. And there would be no makeup classes for those subjects, hopefully. yehey!! I read a few pages of our Zoology 102 lab manual and a book in organic chemistry..
Btw, I would like to invite you to attend our church's Christmas concert to be held at Festival Supermall in Alabang, Muntinlupa City. The show starts at 6 pm. [haha, show]
Bye for now! I am finishing my Zoology assignment.. :( NEVER ENDING

the first day of classes

2004-11-09T19:20:00.000+08:00

The semestral break is over. And too bad, I still wasnt able to learn how to play the violin. I wasnt even able to attend Teacher Danielle's classes because I went with my parents window shopping (hmm.. actually the stores didnt have windows, I can't think of a better phrase to describe what we did. hehe). Aarrgh! My dreams are over. Anyway, my parents were looking for pieces of furniture to put in our new (-ly renovated, ?) house, because we are moving in it in 3 days. (Ooh, I'm so excited to see my sister's and my room, ^_^).
Today's the first day of classes, and as I've been expecting, I wasnt able to attend my first class because I had to line up to get my LRA (Late Registration Application). I ended up enlisting for Socsci 2 and Table Tennis for my PE. I was also planning to take street dancing instead of table tennis, actually. (How I wish I's get the schedule and the classes I want!) Anyway, that first class I missed was Zoo 102, which was Comparative Vertebrate Anatomy. Too bad, I wasn't able to hear the professor's stories about how difficult this sem would be for us. But my classmates told me that it would be 10 times harder than my previous Zoology course! Scary. But no, I can do it! With God's help of course. :) I would be saying hello again to reading new zoology books and dissecting vertebrates.
My next class was Hum II. Our instructor's name was Bien, and she seemed quite friendly. Though I'm not really fond of art and classical music, I think I can do well in her class this sem. :) She called it a day early and my friends and I headed off to Robinson's Place Ermita to eat at Dimsum and Dumplings. I ate a plate full of calories. (*guilt*) Spicy Squid with Fried Rice and a Strawberry Chill Tea, which tasted sooo good. hehe After eating, Ryan and I went to FIX to have Ryan's hair cut short, which turned out to be cut too short. hehe (*Ryan, we love you!!*)
When our friends saw Ryan's new hair, they all laughed, because he had the same haircut when he was in our first year (which he obviously didnt like). I told Ryan that it was ok, but he insisted that I wasn't telling the truth. Girls have different opinions, dude! :)
I only had 3 classes on my schedule on Tuesdays. PI 100 (or Philippine Institutions 100) was my last class. It was the UP version of other school's Life and Works of Dr. Jose Rizal. Our professor was amazing, and I think he knows all about Philippine History. He told us so much of the Catholic Doctrine and the Spanish times and he even shared us some of his *ethnic* talents, such as kulintang playing and speaking in the Maranao dialect. He was like the Dr. Engle of the DSS! hehe He ended the class by an origami lesson. We made Christmas bells out of white paper, ehehe, and they were cute! He invited us to his voluntary work at the UP Pahinungod, where he teaches street kids origami. Those who would come were given an incentive: extra points! What else could I do? He caught my weakness. So he'll see me on Saturday morning, teaching street kids on how to do paper swans and the like. hehe
I stayed for more than an hour after my last class waiting for mom's text. She told me yesterday that she'd fetch me at school, and that we'd be going home together. They went to Divisoria today for business purposes. At 5:30 pm she told me that I'd better go ahead of them because they were still in Divisoria and they might be staying there for a longer time because they were looking for someone and blahblah.. In other words, I went home by the bus.
My class tomorrow morning starts at 7. That means I have to sleep early. :(
Bye for now!

my last Friday on break

2004-11-05T19:10:00.001+08:00

Its been more than a week since I last posted here. Aww, my mom left me for the Bench & Jerry event in Makati. I did not have the book pass because I don’t have the money & I am not really a fan of Jerry Yan’s. haha
Remember my “pioneer entry”? I found out the reason for my super unexpected grade – I got a perfect score on the final exam! When my friend Belinda told me the news, I didn’t know how to react. Could it be true? I have thought of it as impossible because I actually didn’t have answers for about 2-3 questions. I just used my educated guessing capability (quoting, from Dr. Magboo, a Math professor) to answer those questions. Haha thanks Dr. Magboo! I couldn’t express my gratitude to God in just words. My heart is overflowing with joy. He has given me too much blessings – and not only did He bless me – He has given my family so much too. J
Last November 3, I went to our college to get enrolled. Too bad, I wasn’t able to get slots for the soc sci 2 and PE 2 classes I preenlisted in. That meant I would have to line up for late registration and miss some classes on the first week of the sem. L I hate cutting classes! (GC!)
I also received a copy of my final grades for last sem. I thank God because He made me a college scholar [CS] (GWA: 1.45+ to 1.75). I wasn’t also expecting much (though it would really be frustrating if I wouldn’t be a CS this sem), because I knew my performance this sem was so bad (I didn’t even get a 1.00 for this sem). I just feel like posting my grades here (This is not being too proud of my grades)

Zoology 10 - 1.75
Humanities I - 1.50
Communication III - 1.75
Chemistry 27 - 1.75
Chemistry 27.1 - 1.25
Physics 21 - 2.00
PE 2 Ten-Pin Bowling - 2.00

GWA: 1.713

*Aww.. Im not too good in bowling. :( *

!! The feeling was indescribable. hehe. Thank you God so much!!
hehe, I feel like I’ve posted too much. And I feel too GC. haha Bye!
Oohh, I almost forgot (Thanks ate Joyce, for texting me). I am going to have violin lessons tomorrow! Danielle, our PK (Pastor’s Kid) who’s so good in playing the violin, was willing to save the spirit of the frustrated violinist in me. Hehe Hmm. On the other hand, I feel to old for these lessons, I might not be able to catch the concepts and the ways well. Ooohh, too bad. Lord, give me confidence!

The Jerry Yan fever

2004-10-30T14:22:00.000+08:00

I am no fan of Jerry Yan, but we've got lots of F4 stuff at home. And instead of my sister and I fantasizing over this 26 year-old Taiwanese, my Mom goes crazy over his videos, songs, movies, and shows. She even plans to have one corner of her room filled with Jerry Yan stuff. She watches Channel 8 (Myx) every morning and waits for the daily top ten videos where Jerry Yan's new song "Gravity" is on the top spot. It seems like she never gets tired of looking at the man's face. Hoo
Yesterday we went to the Alabang Town Center to buy passes for a Jerry Yan event (to be held in Makati). In order to get a pass, you have to buy 7 Jerry Yan collection shirts from Bench. (And of course, my mom bought 7 shirts! "Lucky" day for the (our) boys!) My sister and I were just staring at her as she made the attendants look for a size of one shirt, and another. Aw, I really can't believe it. She was willing to spend that much money for a pass to see that guy whose face she already saw almost a thousand times on TV and whose voice she's heard for almost eternity (hehe) at our house and in dad's car? [She should have given me the money, and I should have bought jeans or a shirt instead, haha selfish] She did buy me a green skirt, and it was cute (it was on sale, from PhP 429, we had it for only PhP 199).
Sorry, Im not in the mood for blogging, my thoughts are so unorganized.
Bye for now

nothing extra-ordinary

2004-10-29T08:23:00.000+08:00

This year's sem break is boring. I do the same routine everyday: Wake up, eat breakfast, watch tv, eat lunch, take a shower, go out with mom to Cabuyao, Laguna, then go home using dad's car. I can feel the calories starting to add up to a pound. Oh no. (Fact! I already lost about 60 pounds since last sem break.) haha
Well, at least I found one thing worth doing. Last night I decided to read the Bible daily. I made a comittment to read 10 verses each day. I started reading Philippians 1 last night, and I tell you, it really made me feel great. I know I should have started reading the Bible years before. It is a shame to admit, but I grew up in a Christian family and church ( and yet I haven't finished reading all the 66 books of the Bible).
I realized all these things when I finished reading "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown. I borrowed it from s churchmate, Ate Joyce, who used it for a book report in school. I have heard things about the book before I got hold of it, and mostly those comments were negative. Imagine a secret society hailing Mary Magdalene because they believe that she's the wife of Jesus Christ! It was a shock. Dan Brown was a great writer, no doubt. The book was a page turner (I finished reading it in 5 days (for 3 hrs each day)). But the ideas in it are just unbelievable and absurd.
I would really like to say a few more things, but my time's running out. (I'm in Cabuyao, Laguna right now, and my parents might be already waiting for me)
Bye for now!